Author: A.M. Glass
Copyright: February 27, 2005
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Author s Note: This follows Waiting In Silence.
I shouldn’t have looked at what you’d written in Lena’s journal – but you know me – so – get over it. It’s not like you wrote that you were having sex... and believe me missy, you’d better not be or you won’t have me to answer to, nah, you’ll have to answer to “Mama.”
Now that I’ve given you something to think about, let me say thank you. If you hadn’t acted the way you did when you found your mother – I don’t like to think what could have happened.
So, thank you so much for being the bright kid that you are. Yes I’ve told you that before and yes, I know your fifteen going on thirty-two, but you’ll always be a kid to me.
As I’ve gotten that off my chest, let’s get to you. Girl – you’ve got issues – ones you didn’t need heaped onto your shoulders so young. Especially since it was Maggie that told you and not your mother.
I couldn’t believe when I read what you’d written. I swear if I had fish – you know you’ll need to tell me the rest of that word, I bet it’s better than “bobble head” - if I had her in front of me, I’d wring her scrawny neck and she’d be in the hospital bed and not your mom.
She had no right – none to tell you any of this, this was something your mother should have spoken to you about by now.
Trust me when I say when your mother gets out of here, we are going to have a lovely chat about things.
Miranda, you have to know that your mother – both of them love you so much that they’d do anything for you. Here’s the thing though – grown up time and I’m sure you can handle it.
Miranda, you can’t ask your mom about Lena’s suicide attempt, as far as I know, your mom doesn’t have a clue. It’s something Lena has to tell her.
You’re right – Lena was in a dark place at that moment. It was around the time she learned your mother was pregnant with you.
Now, listen up and listen good...
Don’t go half cocked thinking your Mama doesn’t love you. Never, ever doubt she would give her life for yours without a second thought.
But back then, she was in so much pain, they both were. I’ve told you most of their story, the good, the bad and the ugly.
Well, this would definitely fall into the bad/ugly category.
This and the rape were things I couldn’t tell you about and I hope you’ll understand that I wouldn’t have kept it from you if I didn’t have any other choice.
Lena... Lena was heartbroken when she heard about your mother’s pregnancy. She blamed herself for it. She thought it was her fault – if she hadn’t worked for Michael Cambias, your mother wouldn’t have been attacked.
I don’t think she would have listened to reason; she was so messed up.
How could she not be, she had fallen in love for the first time in her life and she took what happened to your mom as a sign she wasn’t worthy of her or it.
She had no one to turn to and she did what she did. She’s told me she regrets it and would never allow herself to get to that point. She knows she has people who care about her now and what the affects would be if she ever considered doing it again. So don’t worry about her. She has too much to live for now.
The more I think about it, the more I want to find Maggie Stone and wring her neck. God help her if either Erica or Lena find out. Not that I’m suggesting you’d tell them, no not me.
I have to admit one thing though – Maggie was a mess during the whole time the rescue team was looking for you. We wouldn’t learn for almost a year that they were looking in vain.
But, she didn’t feel the same for you that Lena did.
Mimo, you were it for her.
She’d put all her hopes and dreams for a better life on you. You were her chance to make up for the past – for a life with your mom. The happily ever after – it was in her grasp...
Damn that storm!!
Do you have any idea how much this family HATES them?
Miranda, if you could have seen Lena – how happy she was when your mom finally woke up. You remember I told you she had a difficult delivery and it was touch and go for her.
Lena was so happy, she came out to tell us the good news and in seconds we took it away from her. I guess you can say this was beginning of the end.
Although they had started dating again and the sparks were there, this took something from them, something that they couldn’t get back.
Your mom has said that Lena was her rock, the person she could count on to always be there for her. But when Lena needed your mom...
Well you know what happened.
And I’m sure you could fill in the gaps I have.
It took a while to find out where she was staying in Prague and I called her. She’s told me I was the last person she expected to hear from. Well, we started meeting without telling your mother – it was her condition and not wanting to lose her as a friend, I accepted.
You can’t imagine how thrilled I was when she called me and said she’d met you while she was on a business trip in France.
I tried to pry her for information, more than how beautiful you were – I told her of course you’re beautiful. You’re a Kane/Montgomery/Hart. I know I’m taking liberties – see my lawyer, your Uncle Reggie.
I don’t know what happened when she saw you guys, she wouldn’t tell me – but I knew something did.
I was hurt when she wouldn’t tell me. I’m over it, but back then I thought we’d grown close enough for her to know I wouldn’t hurt her – that she could trust me. I was kinda surprised to see how much it bothered me, but don’t tell her that, she’ll get a swelled head.
What ever happened it wasn’t too long afterwards that Maggie became a thing of the past. I thought as soon as she was outta there, Bianca would finally realize that Lena was the one – the only one, her soulmate.
Yeah, that’s right, I said soulmate.
Quit laughing kid.
If I ever needed any proof that they exist – all I’d have to do is look at your parents.
Sure they’ve had their problems – still do – but answer me this: Why haven’t they found someone else? Hmm?
Yes your mother’s been on dates, so has Lena, but they never went anywhere.
Lena would say that she wasn’t interested – she had too much work – blah – blah – blah.
I won’t bother telling you your mom basically says the same thing.
Deep down, I think they’re still waiting for the other to make the first move. They’re just too scared to do it.
Okay, Lena’s bitchin’ at me for writing in the journal she bought you, telling me to buy my own – right.
You’ll let me sneak a peek now and then won’t you? If not, at least hide it somewhere I can find it, then no one’s the wiser.
One last thing:
You’re the best thing to happen not only in Lena and Bianca’s lives but mine too – love you kiddo.
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