Title: In Your Honor
Author: Spikey
Fandom: Buffy the vampire slayer
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters, exept Mia. All the characters belong to Joss Whedon + writers, and Mutant Enemy. I am only a poor student so please don't sue me! In Your Honor is a song by Foo Fighters
Rating: PG-13
"I heard this song today, and as I listended to it, it just.. It got me thinking. Of You. Of how I feel for you. I've spend the day thinking things through. An I have come to the conclution that I love you. I'm in love with you. I've never really been in love before, maybe that's why I didn't recognize these feelings. I've always thought it was a slayer thing. But it isn't. I truly, deaply love you. And I've had these feelings for a long time. I don't know when they started, maybe from day one. But whenever they started, I didn't know how to deal with them. I was a screwed up kid with superpowers, living this crazy slayer life. I didn't know how to talk to people, how to make friends. Real friends. Well, I guess that if I had tried harder, that i would've been friends with you guys much sooner. And I proberbly wouldn't have done all that stupid shit.
Anyway. To get back to the song, that. Well. altered my way of thinking of you, completly."
Faith begins to sing with a beautiful dark voice.
Can you hear me?
Hear me screaming
Breaking in the muted sky
This thunder heart
Like bombs beating
Echoing a thousand miles
Mine is yours and yours is mine
There is no divide
In your honor I would die tonight
Mine is yours and yours is mine
I will sacrifice
In you honor I would die tonight
For you to feel alive
Can you feel me?
Feel me breathing
One last breath before I close my eyes
This offering
For receiving
Deliver me into the other side
Mine is yours and yours is mine
There is no divide
In your honor I would die tonight
Mine is yours and yours is mine
I will sacrifice
In you honor I would die tonight
For you to feel alive
"And I would. Die for you. Except it's too late now.
You died before I had a chance to find out my feelings, and to tell them to you. Not that it would matter anyway. You would still hate my guts.
I can't believe it's been three years since he killed you. Just know this; I am not regretting finally putting the stake through Angel. He so had it coming.
Three years, and I'm still here, talking to your grave. Telling you things I've never told anyone. And I'll be back next week. Like I always am.
I love you B. See ya next week.
Oh by the way. I have someone in my life. Someone that i love. Her name's Mia, and she's just great. She knows i'm a slayer, well a retired one. I'm gonna marry her. Or I'm gonna ask her tonight. I have the ring in my pocket. Damn I'm nervous, B. But I just can't imagine my life without her. She pulled my out of my grief. My grief for you.
I think that you will always be my bigest love. You were my first. You have a very big piece of my heart, and it will always be yours."
Faith look at the watch on her wrist.
"Well I have to get going. I have to pick up Mia from work, and take her out to dinner.
Have fun.. Or whatever you have going for ya, B."
With that Faith leaves the graveyard, and Buffy's grave behind.