Title: Crawling Back to You

Name: Cherry89

Pairings: Marissa and Alex

Rating: PG to NC-17

Warning: Contains strong emotion, strong sexual content, heavy violence, strong language, deals with rape

Disclamer: As I said if I owned it then what's the point in writing and if I did own it I'd still have Alex with Marissa.

Summary: Marissa and Alex meet unexpectedly at the will of fate when Marissa gets a job transfer.

Spoiler: None really...

Author's Note: If you are bothered by homosexual content and a gay relationship between two women head for the hills! (will have a sequel soon)

Archiving: Maybe...if you ask nicely...

Feed Back: Of course... Uconnchick4lyf15@yahoo.com

Alex Kelly, or should I say Captain Kelly of the LAPD, was sitting in her office awaiting the transfer of a sergeant from Newport PD. Alex had no idea who it was though, and boy was she in for a surprise.

Marissa walked around her office gathering her things. She stopped when she reached the picture on her desk. It was the only thing she had left of her best friends, Summer, Seth, and Ryan. They were killed two years after high school in a car accident. Marissa should have been in the car with them that night. Marissa shook her head relieving the thought from her head. Now she was going to LA. Transferring from the Newport PD to the LAPD. She had no idea what to expect or who she would see there.

She packed up the rest of her things and closing the door behind her as a tear rolled down her no longer fragile cheek. She was leaving her home, her solitude. A place she finally learned to like and now she was leaving. She walked into Captain Thomas’ office.

“Marissa, I’m so sorry you have to leave. We will all miss you dearly.”

“I will miss you all too, but I have to get out of here I have to meet the Captain in LA by seven.”

“You take care now Marissa.”

“I will.” And with that the two of them hugged and Marissa left Newport for the last time in her life. Marissa carried her box out to her red Mustang, and got into the driver’s seat. She inserted the key in the ignition and revved the engine and said good bye to Newport as she left.

Alex sat in her office not sure of what to expect. All she heard was that some sergeant was to be transferred to LA. She didn’t know much about it either. She knew it was woman. A woman with many good qualities shown in any officer of her kind. Still Alex wanted to know her name, but was denied to know for some odd reason. She knew that this woman had excellent marksmanship and her attitude was overwhelming to those in her way. Alex thought and thought., but she couldn’t even imagine who would be in her office in 4 hours.

Marissa drove out of site of Newport and stopped about ten minutes outside of town, at the cemetery. She slowed her car to a stop and got out. She whipped her clammy hands on her jeans and walked to her friends’ graves. Marissa walked heavily to Summer’s grave first. She stopped looked down at the inscription. ‘Hear lies the beloved wife of a great man, and a great best friend anyone in the world could ask for’. Marissa knew Summer got her out of many things. She was always there for her. Marissa wanted so much to hear her guiding voice once again.

“God Sum, what happened?” Marissa stood there talking to her friend’s grave. Her best friend. The one person she always counted on. “I am so sorry for everything. I miss you so much.” Marissa began to cry as she looked to the left of Summer’s grave finding Cohen’s., which read, ‘Hear lies one great friend always there, and the best husband to a beautiful woman’. “Cohen, I am so sorry for what happened.” With that said she turned to face the grave behind her. Her love, her first love anyway. He was always apart of her. That would have never changed. He was still apart of her. They could have been great together, if they were in love with one another, but they weren’t. “I love you Ryan. Good bye.” And she left with that last good bye to her beloved friends. Marissa got back into her car and drove off again.

Alex sat at her desk filing some paper work some hours later. It was almost seven she guessed. Alex heard a knock at the door and looked up. Lieutenant Kline poked through the entrance of her office. “She’s here.”

“Send her in.” the lieutenant nodded and walked off to retrieve the woman for Alex. Marissa stood waiting in the lobby of the police department. She was nervous but she knew this was for the best. She walked slowly down the hall lead by the woman in front of her. She turned the knob on the door slowly and walked in to the office finding the back of a chair to her.

“Excuse me?” Alex looked up. ‘Shit! I know that voice. Who the hell?’ Alex slowly turned in her chair catching a small glimpse of the woman before her. She looked in awe. She certainly knew this woman that’s for sure. Alex’s mouth was agape and she was staring at Marissa finding the words trying to come out but they wouldn’t. “Holy shit!” Alex spat out.

Marissa was stunned by her reaction. Not so much the surprise but the choice of words. Marissa also stared back in wonder. “Wow!”

The two of them were silent for a few moments before Alex spoke up. “Marissa Cooper.”

“Alex Kelly.” Alex got up and walked over to the woman before her. It had been five years. A long five years. Alex walked to her and faced her looking into her eyes. Marissa stared back into hers. They both felt a shock run through their bodies. Neither one of them wanted this moment to be ruined, but it was. Lieutenant Kline walked in to her office and dropped a set of papers on her desk.

“You should learn to knock.”

“I am so sorry I interrupted. I am leaving for the night.”

“Ok, close the door please.” Alex returned her attention back to Marissa. At almost the exact same time the two of them reached out and opened their arms to embrace one another. Alex stepped away first not wanting to but knowing she had to. “How have you been?”




“I am sorry.”

“What for?”

“What ever is bothering you.”

“Well maybe we can talk about that later, right now business.”

“Yes business. Take a seat.”

Marissa sat and looked intently at Alex. “Ok.”

“Well, all I have for you right now is simple.”


“your uniform is in locker number 549 in the woman’s locker room. It’s just a number, there aren’t many woman in this district. You can start tomorrow as your current position you would have held in Newport.” Alex paused noticing the look on Marissa’s face. She had winced, not out of annoyance, but out of pain and grief. Alex knew something was desperately wrong. “Marissa?”

Marissa looked up a single tear slide down her cheek. She looked at Alex. She didn’t have to say a word before Alex engulfed her body into a tight hug. Marissa cried on her shoulder. Alex didn’t want to push so she instead said simply. “Take the time you need to get adjusted. If that means you’re here tomorrow ready to work, fine. If it means that you need a week to settle in or what ever then you do that.” Alex looked into her eyes not sure what she would do come tomorrow.

“Thank you Alex. I’ll be here.” Marissa let go and looked at her once more. “What time?”

“Six am. Be ready for a small walk through of the station. You won’t be out on calls for some time to let you get used to the area.” Alex pause but before Marissa reached the door she grabbed her turning her around to face Alex. “If you need to talk to anyone about anything, I am here for you.”

Marissa nodded and walked out of her office letting another tear fall from her eyes. ‘If you only knew Alex, if you only knew.’ Marissa continued to her car and drove to her apartment. She looked up at it. It was nice, not like Newport, but she liked that. She took her keys out walking to the door and opened it taking in her surroundings. She looked to her compact disk player blinking and pressed resume. She heard the song fill her head. A song she had been listening to for years since the two of them broke up. She didn’t want her to leave, she was confused. She wanted Alex to stay but by time she knew what she wanted it was too late. She walked up stairs allowing the sounds of Avril Lavigne’s “Slipped away” fill her head and apartment. Marissa sat on her bed taking off her clothes and grabbing a towel heading for the shower.

Alex sat at her chair confused as all get out. She swiveled thinking of Marissa and how much she wanted to hold her right now. Comfort her, wipe away her tears. She cried knowing she had her chance once, and she blew it. Just as she was about to completely lose it Carly walked in. She rushed over to Alex. “Hey what’s wrong?” Carly was her girlfriend. Things weren’t going too well either and now Marissa was here.

“I’m sorry Car, I can’t do this anymore.”

“Do what?”

“This,…” Alex gestured with her hand, “us.”

Carly looked at her and nodded. “I knew this would happen.”

“I’m sorry.”

“I know. Hey it’s for the best right. I mean we haven’t gotten along in months.”

“Yea sure.”

“Alex, I just want you to be happy ok.”

“I know.” Alex could control the tears now streaming from her red eyes.

“Alex, I will always be here for you. You know that?”

“Yea, I know. Thank you Car.”

“What are friends for, friends?”

“Yea sure. Can you give me a ride?”

“Yea sure.” Carly and Alex left and they went to Alex’s place. Carly dropped her off waved and left. Alex walked into the house greeted by her sister.

“Hey Al. What’s wrong?”

“Carly and I broke up.”

“Oh I am sorry.”

“Is that why you are crying?”

“Yea.” Alex lied.

“No. Alex I am your sister tell me.”



“The girl from Newport…”

“You mean miss I love you?”


“What about her?”

“She was the one transferred here.”

“Oh Al. I am so sorry.”

“Me too.” Alex fell onto her knees. Lucy caught her mid way before her head connected with the hardwood floor.

“Shhh.” Lucy tried her best to comfort her older sister. She knew Marissa was the only girl Alex had ever cared for that deeply. And Alex let her go, and now she was back. Alex cried herself to sleep and Lucy carried her up to her bedroom. She closed the door wishing on a single star for her sister to find love once again so she would finally be happy again.

Marissa sat on her bed putting on her sweats and a wife beater. She walked down stairs and started to unpack some more things before tomorrow. She picked up a box from the dinning room table and carried it to her room. She sat on the bed and went through it. She stopped when she reached the bottom finding all things she tried so hard to forget. Alex. She looked at the picture of the two of them from the Baitshop. Summer had caught them making out and took it. They were so happy then, what happened? Marissa decided that was enough for tonight and went to bed.

Chapter Two

Alex woke up the next morning supporting a huge ass head ache. She sat up in bed and wondered how she had got there. The last she knew she was crying in Lucy’s arms. ‘Shit, I cried myself to sleep again.’ Alex made a motion to get up for a shower but was quickly brought back down to her bed. Her head was spinning. No way was she going in for work today. She called Lieutenant Kline.


“Not so loud Sandy.”

“Sorry. What’s wrong?”

“I have a massive head ache and I can’t move. I won’t be in today. If Marissa asks for me tell her I am home sick and give her my phone number where she can reach me if she has any questions.”

“Sure no problem.”

“Thank you.” Alex hung up the phone and turned over to go back to sleep. A few hours passed and she heard foot steps coming from outside her room. She rolled towards the door finding Lucy there looking worried.

“What’s wrong Al?”

“Head ache.”


“Yea. Could you draw me some bath water? I would but I can’t hardly move.”

“Sure Al.” Lucy walked into the bathroom turning on the water and letting it flow to the top before helping her sister into the bathroom. “Do you need anything else?”

“No. Are you sticking around?”

“Yea I have to eat. Then I am going to watch a movie or something.”

“Ok.” Alex closed the door after Lucy left to go down stairs and eat and watch television. She pulled her pajamas off and slide into the water. She felt relaxed right away. She laid there for an hour taking in the sent of the aroma therapy candles and bubble bath. She got out and dressed back into some light clothes and headed down stairs.

“Hey, you feeling any better?”

“No.” Alex laid on the couch and covered up with a blanket. She was out with in minutes.

“Wow.” Lucy turned the television off and walked into the kitchen when the phone rang. She grabbed it quickly. “Hello?”

“Um…hi. I am looking for Alex?”

“Who’s calling?”

“It’s Marissa.”

“She is sleeping right now. She has a bad head ache and is out like a light. I’ll tell her you called.”

“Ok thanks.” Marissa hung up. ’I am worried.’

Lucy looked back to her sister who was still sleeping and she decided to go see this Marissa. She drove to the station asking for her. Marissa walked up behind her tapping her on her shoulder.

“What can I do for you?”

“You can tell me why the hell you are here, for starters. And after that I want to know what happened with you and Alex.”

Marissa was stunned. “Um…ok. Follow me.” Marissa lead her down stairs to her office and closed the door. “I am here because of things that happened in Newport. I had no idea where Alex was.”

“Ok but what happened there?”

“Too many bad things for me to want to remember. My mother for one, Summer, Seth, and Ryan.”

“Your mother, Summer, Seth, and Ryan? Would that be the Ryan Alex wanted so badly to kill?”


“Ok get on with it. You and Alex. What happened?”

“I…that is Alex and I were dating. My mother found out and went ape shit on me. She told Ryan to get me out of Alex’s apartment because I would listen to him. She ruined everything between us. Alex left me in Newport that night because I didn’t know what I wanted. By time I did, it was too late, she was gone. My mother tried to get me out of the house for weeks never worked though. One day I was supposed to be out with my friends, but instead I went to the beach where Alex and I had our first kiss. And I lost my friends that day.”

“Wow. Ok. I think I have everything straight now. And if you ever…” She turned to face Marissa. “hurt my sister again, I will hurt you.”

‘I have no intentions of hurting her again. I never wanted to in the first place.”

“I am sure. She’s at the house sleeping. Here’s the address. I am worried. If she doesn’t show up tomorrow, stop by and see how she is. I have to go out of town.” Lucy turned around and stopped in front of the door. “And Marissa.”


“She still loves you.“ Marissa felt her eyes water and felt a tear run down her cheek. “I can hear her when she calls for you at night.” And with that Lucy walked out the door and left for New Zealand.

Marissa spent the day working. She had a desk job. But was happy with it for now. After her shift she walked down to the gym to swim a few laps and then headed home. She opened the door fast and closed it even faster collapsing against it. She fell to her knees and cried. ‘She still loves me? After all this time? After everything that happened? And it was my fault she left. Would she take me back?’ Marissa didn’t really know any of the answers. She picked herself up off the floor and plopped on her bed falling asleep quickly.



“Babe? What are we doing today?”

“I don’t know what do you want to do?”

“I was thinking this.” Alex kissed Marissa.



Marissa woke with a start. She had realized she was dreaming of Alex, again. She got up and turned the shower on undressing and stepping into the steamy water. She let the soothing water hit against her back and neck. She washed and got out drying herself off and retrieving her uniform. She dress and left the apartment and went to work. She walked in and no Alex again. ‘What was up with her?’ Marissa wasn’t going to just sit here. She informed Lieutenant Kline that she had to take the day off to relax because of issues she still had to face. Which was part true but she wanted to see if Alex was ok.

Alex awoke on the couch again. She felt her head pounding. Her breathing irregular. She was sweaty all over. What was wrong with her. Was she really sick. ‘I need to get up.’ But she couldn’t move. All she could do was cry.

Marissa sat at the intersection cussing at the people in front of her who didn’t by her standards know how to drive. “Come on!” She yelled at the guy in front. “Oh for Christ’s sake. I am tired of this shit.” She turned her siren on and drove around the long line making it to Alex’s house in minutes. She parked her car and walked up to the door. She lifted up the mat taking out the spare key where Lucy had left it for her. She hadn’t even thought to look up, then she did. Alex’s house was huge. Could house an army. She slide the key in unlocking the door and turning the knob letting herself in.

She looked in awe as she saw her house. It was amazing. Almost as big as her mom’s and Caleb’s. She looked around to find a heavy breathing Alex on the couch. She closed the door and walked over to her. She knelt down beside her stroking her forehead. She whispered in Alex’s ear.

“Shh, everything will be ok. I am here to take care of you.” Marissa got up to get a wet wash cloth from the kitchen wiping Alex’s face and laying it on her head. Alex stirred at the warmness on her ear and her head. She felt someone there and opened her eyes slowly.

Marissa could tell she felt horrible, Alex didn’t have to say she did. “Shh, don’t say anything. We can talk when you are feeling better.” Alex nodded and Marissa laid next to her on the couch wrapping her arms around her and letting her drift off to sleep with her soon to follow.

Chapter Three

Alex woke up relieved of her fever and was breathing regular again. Marissa was still holding her when she looked up. She didn’t want to move, but she knew they had to talk. She nudged Marissa waking her gently.


“Hey, we need to talk. Now.” Alex sat up as did Marissa.

“What’s wrong Alex?”

“How did you get in? Never mind that I know how. How did you find me?”

“Your sister.”

“Lucy?” Marissa nodded. “How?”

“She came by the station yesterday.’

“Ok. Why did you come?”

“I was worried.”

“You were?”


“Why were you worried?”

“You hadn’t showed up for work in two days. Alex I know you, you aren’t one to miss work. Your sister stopped by my office telling me she worried about you. Told me if I hurt you again, she’d hurt me.”

“She talked to you?”


“How long?”

“An hour maybe.”

“What about?”

“You, us. She wanted to know.”

“What did you tell her?”

“The truth.”

“What’s that?” Marissa looked hurt. Seeing this Alex quickly apologized. “I am sorry I didn’t mean it the way it sounded. What did you tell her?”

“It doesn’t matter what I told her, but what she told me. I was worried about you. I wanted to see you. I wanted to make sure you were ok.”

“And you couldn’t just call?”

“Alex, I wanted to see for myself.” Marissa’s eyes were watering.

‘Ok, well plenty of time for this later. How about we just talk and catch up?”

“Sure.” Marissa said with a smile.

“So, how did you get yourself into this stuff, law enforcement I mean. You weren‘t exactly the strongest person when we were together.”

“Long story.” Marissa felt herself tear up again.

“Marissa you can tell me.” She took Marissa into a hug and they sat down at the table in the kitchen.

“I was just finishing high school. I was drinking, a lot of people took advantage of me. I was raped with two weeks left.” Marissa paused regaining her composure.

“Why were you drinking?”

“Because you left.”

“But you had Ryan.”

“No I didn’t. I never wanted Ryan, but someone just refused to see that. There was no one else. I didn’t have anyone but good old Jack.” Alex knew she was talking about liquor.

“What do you mean? Other than Ryan.”

“I mean I lost it Alex. After you left I was lost. I had lost all intentions of going to school, seeing anyone, I just didn’t care. I drank all the time. I ended up in the hospital for it. I had alcohol poisoning. When I got raped I was drunk, so the guy got away with it. I got pregnant…but I lost the baby.”

“I am sorry.”

“Me too Alex. I realized when you left I wanted you but you were gone and I was too late. I finished out school. I went into law enforcement because I didn’t want another troubled teen to end up like me. I worked hard Alex. I built my body up from a fragile little string of skin and bone to this.” Marissa stood and turned and sat back down.

“Yea I can’t tell you aren’t the skinny bitch anymore. Now you are the bitch who could kick my ass.”

“I wouldn’t do that, but thank you for the complement. “

“So then what.”

“Well Summer and Seth got married. Ryan ended up back with Lindsey. I was alone again. It had been two years. I was still a little unorthodox, still drinking just not a lot, enough for a buzz. Ryan, Seth, and Summer…” Marissa felt her throat tighten. Tears rolled down her face.

“Marissa?” She didn’t respond. Alex got up and held Marissa while she cried.

“They are dead Alex.”

“What?” Alex looked back to Marissa.

“They are dead.”


“Car accident. I should have been with them. I should have died too.” Marissa fell to her knees. “I should have died. It was my fault.”

“No it wasn’t.”

“Alex, it was my birthday they wanted to take me out. I told them no because I was at the beach and I needed to think. They came anyway and I told them to leave. Leave me and everything alone. I didn’t want them to be there. So they left. I turned around 15 minutes later to hear a loud screeching noise. I saw their suv hit a tractor trailer head on. They were all dead instantly. And it was all my fault.”

“No it wasn’t your fault.”

“I was being selfish. I wanted to be alone to think about you. And I lost my friends. I will never forgive myself.”

“Is that why you came here?”

“No, I mean part of it, but the other part….”

“Marissa please.”

“My mom. She’s dead too.”





“Wait a second she was shot?”


“I am confused.”

“Robbery at Caleb’s company. She was caught in the cross fire. Kirstin and Caleb made it out but she didn’t.”

“Wow. I thought you hated her?”

“I did, I still do, but I loved her none the less. Even after she succeeded in breaking us up.”

“I am so sorry.”

“Alex after you left I lost everyone around me to this crazy world. They were all ripped from my grasp. It’s not fair. My friends, my mom, you, I lost you all.” Marissa now sobbing controllably if you could had her head in her knees with Alex wrapped around her. “Alex I loved you, and you left me.”

“I know I am sorry I left. Wait, what did you say?”

“I loved you…” Marissa looked up, “I still do.”

“You loved me?”

“Yea, I did. I loved you so much I almost lost myself because I couldn’t live with out you. I wanted to die Alex.”

“Marissa I am so sorry. I wish I hadn’t been blind. But I was and I can’t change that. And I loved you too.”

“But do you still?’


“Alex please I need to know.”

“Yes I still do. But it doesn’t matter.”

“What do you mean it doesn’t matter?” Marissa stood and backed away from Alex.

“I can’t do it again. You broke my heart. I know you didn’t mean to, but you did. It hurt to see you with Ryan.”

“And you don’t know if you can forgive me after all this time? We were friends nothing more. You were jealous.”

“I am sorry Marissa I think you should go.” Marissa looked crushed, she ran to the door.

Alex was mad at herself for doing that. Hurting her like that. She did still love her and she wanted to forgive her, but she didn’t want to be hurt again. She was pissed at herself for letting her leave like that. She got up and ran outside where Marissa was in her car crying. She made a move to open the one door which thankfully was unlocked. Marissa looked up. “What are you doing?”

“I am sorry. I do forgive you. It’s just I don’t want to get hurt again. I don’t want to hurt you.”

“Alex I wouldn’t hurt you ever again, and if I thought you would hurt me I wouldn’t have came here.”

Marissa looked at Alex feeling their bodies slowly come together and felt their lips crash against each others.

Alex pulled away first. “Look Marissa I want to be with you again. I just need some time. It’s the best I can promise you right now.”

“I understand. Can we still hang out and talk and stuff?”

“You sound like we’re in high school, but yea.”

“Ok, I should get going.”


“I’ll see you at work tomorrow.”

“Yea…”Alex went to shut the door but stopped.


“Thank you.”

Marissa smiled. “You’re welcome.” And with that Marissa drove off and went home. She pulled into the drive way and got out going up to her room which was a mess. She took out the picture of her and Alex from the Baitshop. She knew it was a mistake to let her go. Now that she got her back she wouldn’t fuck up this time. She would make things right. She would have to work hard at it but she knew she could do it. She knew they could do it. She put a pair of sweats and a wife beater on and climbed in bed falling asleep when her head hit the pillow.

Alex on the other hand stayed awake all night. She loved Marissa, she was sure of that. She wanted to be with her, she was sure of that too. She wanted to have Marissa back, she loved Marissa, still does. Marissa had hurt her when she lied. When she was out with Ryan. Alex was hurt. She didn’t want to rush it this time. She didn’t want hurt this time. Alex finally let sleep consume her tired body and slept till morning sun came in her room.

Marissa was already there when Alex got into her office. Alex almost ran right into her. “Oh my gosh I almost knocked you over Alex.”

“It’s ok Marissa.” She said gathering her papers from the floor.

“I am so sorry now your papers are out of order.”

“Hey not like I worked all day getting them that way.”

“I am sorry.’

“It’s ok. Do you want to go to the café? It’s a nice little restaurant.”


“Lunch or after work?”

“After…no lunch.”

“Lunch, you sure?”

“Yea, I’ll see you at one.”

“Ok. Now get to work.”

“I am going but I mean jeez look at the body of the person who stopped me.” Marissa smiled and headed into her office as Alex followed suit going into her office to sit down and order her papers, again.

Chapter Four

Alex sat in her office thinking about Marissa. Everything that has happened to her. She didn’t go into detail too much but they were big things. Alex knew she would have to get these things out of her. She would be subtle about it though. Alex was still thinking when Marissa came in scaring her causing her to knock over a cup of coffee all over herself.

“Oh my gosh. I am sorry Alex. I didn’t mean to startle you.” Marissa closed the door and walked over to the seat in front of Alex and sat down.

“It’s ok really Marissa.” Alex looked at Marissa and back to her now ruined suit. “What are you doing here anyway?”

“Alex…” Marissa pointed to the clock.

“Oh, wow already.”


“Well let’s get going then.”


Alex stood and her and Marissa walked out of the station. “My car?”

“Sure.” Alex opened the door for Marissa and they got in.

“If you don’t mind I would like to run home and change first.”

“Sure. I would too.”

“Ok. I’ll drive by your place after wards.”

“Ok.” The rest of the drive was quiet. Alex pulled into the drive way and got out opening her house and walking upstairs. She stopped right at the top. “You can come up.”

“No, I’ll wait here.”

“Oh, ok.” Alex walked into her bedroom and changed into another skirt and blouse. She turned and walked back down stairs.

“What’s with the…” Marissa stared at Alex as she walked down the stairs.



“What are you talking about?” Alex laughed.

“Oh. Um…the huge stove.”

“Uh huh. I can cook.”

“Oh really?” Marissa looked at her dissatisfied.

“What I can.”


“Come on so we can make it there for lunch.”

“Yea, after you.” Marissa gestured and followed behind Alex staring at her ass.

Alex turned around when they reached the car and caught Marissa. “What are you staring at?”

“Huh?” Marissa looked up.

“You heard me.”

“Um…I was…you.” Marissa smiled sheepishly.

“I thought so. Come on get in I’ll swing by your place so you can change too.”



Alex drove Marissa to her apartment and walked into the living room and sat on the couch while waiting for her to come back down. She noticed the compact disc player was blinking and pressed play. She listened closely to the sounds of Avril Lavigne.

“Slipped Away”

I miss you miss you so bad
I don’t forget you
Oh its so sad

I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly
The day that you slipped away
Was the day I found it wont be the same

I didn’t get around to kiss you good bye on the hand
I wish I could see you again
Not that I can

I hope you can hear me
Cause I remember it clearly
The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it wont be the same

I’ve had my wake up
Wont you wake up
I keep asking why

And I cant take it
It wasn’t fake it
It happened you passed by

Now you’re gone
Now you’re gone
Now you go
Now you go
Some where I cant bring you back

Now you’re gone
Now you’re gone
Now you go
Now you go
Some where you’re not coming back

The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it wont be the same
No, the day you slipped away
Was the day I found it wont be the same
Oh, nah nah nah nah nah
I miss you

Alex stopped the compact disk player and pressed forward. Another song came on.

"Crawling Back To You"

Everybody knows that I was such a fool to ever let go of you
Baby I was wrong
Yeah I know I said we'd be better off alone
It was time that we moved on
I know I broke your heart, I didn't mean to break your heart
But baby here I am

Banging on your front door
My pride spilled on the floor
My hands and knees are bruised and I'm crawling back to you
Begging for a second chance
Are you gonna let me in?
I was running from the truth and now I'm crawling back to you

I know you're in there and you can make me wait
But I'm not gonna wait
It's the least that I can do, just to tell you face to face
I was lying to myself, now I'm dying in this hell
Girl I know you're mad, I can't blame you for being mad
But baby here I am

Banging on your front door
My pride spilled on the floor
My hands and knees are bruised and now I'm crawling back to you
Begging for a second chance
Are you gonna let me in?
I was running from the truth and now I'm crawling back to you

If you could see these tears I'm crying
Touch these hands that can't stop shaking
Hear my heart that's barely beating
You will see a different man

But baby here I am
Banging on your front door
My pride spilled on the floor
My hands and knees are bruised and I'm crawling back to you (come on)
Begging for a second chance
Are you gonna let me in? (let me in)
I was running from the truth, now I'm crawling back to you

Banging on your front door (darling)
My pride spilled on the floor
I was running from the truth, now I'm crawling back to you, yeah
Now I'm crawling back to you
Crawling back to you
Crawling back to you
Crawling back to you

Alex stopped the music when she heard the door open. ‘That was the real reason she came here. To get me back.’ Alex looked up to see her at the edge of the stairs.

“So I guess you listened to my cd?” Marissa smiled slightly.

“Yea.” Alex looked at Marissa and walked over to her. “Why didn’t you just tell me?”

“Because I lost you, I wanted to get you back. And I wanted to take it slow because you didn’t want to get back together.”

“I didn’t say that.”

“Not so many words, but that’s how it came off.”

Alex lifted Marissa’s chin. Forcing her to look at the shorter woman. “I am sorry. And I want to be with you. The last song, why?”

“Crawling back to you?”


“Because that’s what I was doing.” Marissa looked back down. Alex wouldn’t let her pull away from her grasp.

“Marissa.” Alex lifted her chin and put her lips on hers. “I love you.”

Marissa kissed back and looked at Alex with tears in her eyes. “Do you know how long I wanted to hear you say that?”

“Five long years?” Alex laughed and whipped Marissa’s eyes. “No more crying today ok?”

“Ok.” Alex took Marissa into a hug and they walked out getting back in Alex’s car to go to the café.

Alex and Marissa were seated at the back of the café and were talking while waiting for the waiter. “You know, we should leave I want to take you somewhere.” Alex started top get up and took Marissa’s hand and lead her back to the car.

“Where are we going?”


“Ok.” Marissa smiled. She looked out the window amazed by the view. She didn’t realize they left LA. Alex continued driving until they reached a small beach. “Alex where are we? We have work.”

“Don’t worry I am the captain besides this place is better. The company is better too.” Alex smiled at her and grabbed her hand leading her to the remote beach. They sat down together.



“Do you remember the first time on the beach?”

“How could I forget.” Marissa leaned in as did Alex and their lips met once again claming their fears and insecurities. Alex laid back and pulled Marissa on top of her, not breaking the kiss. They pulled away after minutes of the deep passionate kiss they had held together.

Marissa trying to catch her breath said, “It’s still as breath taking as the first time.”

Alex smiled kissing her again and then they watched the ocean as time wore on the rest of the day. It was getting dark and Marissa was getting cold. She was shivering and Alex had noticed.

“Hey, you cold?”

“A little.”

“Come here.” Marissa stood and settled in between Alex’s legs and she wrapped her arms around her. “I could stay like this forever.”

“Me too.” They stayed another hour and it was getting dark. Alex went to get up but Marissa pulled her back down. “Wait.”

“What for?” Alex asked sitting back down.

“The stars.” Alex smiled, she knew she loved the stars. “Look at that one.” Marissa pointed in the sky and pointed out the brightest one she could see. “And the stars around it.” Marissa pointed them all out. “It’s Eros.”


“The god of love. Greek mythology.”

“Oh, what about it?”

“He was the god of love. He had arrows and a bow, or a flaming torch. He was the child of Aphrodite, the goddess of love. He was sort of like cupid as we call it. It is symbolic don’t you think?”

“I am not good with this stuff. Why is it symbolic?”

“Because, god of love and goddess of love are in the sky at the same time.”

“And that means what?”

“That love is near and bound to grow.”

“And you believe that?”

“Of course I do.”

“And what else do you believe?”

“That fate is in the stars. And that destiny lead me back to you to give us a second chance.”

Alex was stunned at her response. They were both quiet for the rest of the time they spent there which wasn’t long because Marissa was cold. “Come on we should go. You are shivering.”

Marissa nodded and the two of them got in the car. It was a fairly long ride home about and hour and a half. Alex was looking ahead and Marissa was looking at her. Alex could feel her eyes on her. “What?”


“Then why are you staring at me?”

“Because you are beautiful.”

Alex turned to Marissa, “You are too.” And she took Marissa’s hand bring it to her lips kissing it gently and intertwining their fingers laying them on her lap. They reached LA around nine and Marissa was getting tired. Alex decided to take her home and get her to bed.

Alex pulled in her driveway and walked her to the door. “Good night Marissa.” Alex turned to walk back to her car but was stopped.

“Wait, Alex.” Alex turned to face her. “Do you want to come in?”

Chapter Five

Alex smiled, “Sure.” Marissa fiddled with her keys and let the two of them in. She closed the door and set her keys on the shelf by the door. She walked into the living room with Alex and sat down.

“Hey you want something to drink?”

“Sure, what do you have?”

“Let me check.” Marissa got up and went to the fridge. “I have beer, water, milk, orange juice, and some weird flavored kool-aid.”

“Water is fine.” Marissa grabbed two bottles of water walking back into the living room she gave one to Alex and sat down on the chair next to the couch. “So tell me, what really happened while I was gone?”

“I told you.” Marissa looked away.

“No, you gave me a short version and I know you did. Please Marissa, tell me what happened. You are hurt, I can tell.” Alex put her hand on the other woman’s knee. “It’s ok you can trust me.”

“I do trust you Alex. It’s just so hard to talk about.”

“Well try your best.”

Marissa nodded and began. “The day after you left, I didn’t go anywhere. Hell I didn’t go anywhere for weeks. Summer said I needed to get out of the house. I told her I wasn’t leaving. She said I would have to sooner or later. I chose later. I drank. Good old Jack was always there. In my flask in my nightstand drawer next to my bed. Along with Advil, Motrin, and Excedrin. My closest friends. It’s crazy how one day you go from being so happy and the next day you’re back in the hole you tried so hard to get out of. And you fall back into it faster than you could have imagined. And I did fall back into that hole Alex. I was my old self again from before I meet you. When we were together I never drank. I didn’t stock up on meds. I was fine. I was out of that hole. And being with you made me realize what I was missing, but after you left I had no reason to want to live anymore. I didn’t want to. I almost O.D. on Motrin and vodka. I was at my house it was Valentine’s Day, a year after we had our first date. I was upset, and I wanted to make all the pain go away. I was a senior. A troubled person. I always had been. And I realized it would never change. Summer disowned me and stopped talking to me. She tried and tried to get me to come out of it but nothing ever worked. She even called you, but you hung up on her.” Marissa paused taking a gulp of water. She looked at Alex who was horrified by what Marissa was telling her and it was only going to get worse.

“After that I stopped drinking after being in the hospital and having to go to rehab. I had to my mom and everyone had an intervention. Which sent me to rehab for two months. I missed half of senior year because of drinking. I stayed till April and came home. I went back to school getting my life back on track. I stopped drinking. Summer and I were talking again. But then Ryan had to go and fuck it up. I was doing fine until he started on me. Saying that you were a bad influence on me, that you didn’t deserve me, that you were playing me, and that you didn’t really love me because if you had you would have stayed and fought for me. And I thought he was right. I was drinking again. Summer nearly took his head off screaming at him about it. I remember everything they said they were so loud.”


~*~(flash back)

“What the fuck is your problem Ryan?!”

“My problem? She is the one with the problem.”

“You have no idea what kind of pressure and stress she is under!”

“Don’t even start with me.” Ryan started to walk away. Summer grabbed his shirt and turned him around to face her. “She got what she deserved.”

“What’s that supposed to mean?”

“It means I punished her, and she deserved it!” Ryan began to walk away again.

“You think you can walk away from me!?” Summer slapped him. “Do you know how much she is hurting?! Of course you don’t because you don’t care that she loved Alex. All you cared about was that you wanted her and couldn’t have her. Alex was the best thing that happened to her. AND YOU KNOW IT! Your such a FUCKING ASS!! You are fucked up worse than her. She would never hurt you the way you hurt her. Saying things like that about Alex and their relationship when you have no idea about it! Look at what she did for you, she let go of you so you could go with Theresa! And you fucking come back less that a year later treating her this way! You should be a shamed of your fucking self!” Summer took a deep breath and continued her yelling. “You come in here after she had been doing good for so long and bring up Alex. Telling her everything you thought about her and their relationship. She didn’t need to hear it. She gets enough of that shit from her mother, the bitch from hell! And you drive her back to drinking! I hope you are happy, because this is the last time you hurt my best friend! Get the fuck out!” Summer took her shoe off and beat him with it. Ryan ran out of the house only to be caught by Seth.

Seth looked at him with distain. “How could you?! You say you love her? My ass! Get the fuck out of here Ryan and don’t come back.” Seth then punched him knocking Ryan on to the ground.



“Seth punched Ryan?”

“Yea I was surprised at first too. Summer nearly killed him.” Marissa then continued her story. “He raped me while I was in my room that night before they all got there. It took all the strength I had left in my body to not kill myself. I was on my bed. He came in, I thought he just wanted to talk. But he started to look at me weird and got on top of me. I begged him to get off.”


~*~(flash back)

Marissa sat on her bed and could only watch in horror realizing what Ryan was about to do to her. She just sat there and waited because she had no where to go.

“Marissa, I love you.” And then he was on her. Pulling of her clothes and tugging at her hair. “Alex could never love you the way I do. She hurt you. She didn’t love you. She didn’t deserve you. She used you.”

Marissa looked away but he grabbed her face and forced her to look at him. “She did, you know she did. Didn’t she?” Marissa didn’t answer. Ryan slapped her face, “Answer me.” Marissa nodded crying.

Marissa hit him many times. Trying to get free of him. But he over powered her greatly. She tried to grasp for the lamp on her night stand. But he grabbed her arm and put it under his knee. He rode her like a bull. She was crying but he still wouldn’t stop. Marissa was still hitting him with her free hand. And it seemed as if he were enjoying it. He entered her, making her scream for help. Summer was first to rush up stairs she heard her. Ryan quickly got off her. “Get dressed and shut up.” Ryan pulled up his pants and walked to the door stepping out.

“What the fuck is going on here?!”

“Nothing Summer.”

“Nothing, my ass! What the fuck! Get out of my way now Ryan! I swear I’ll kill you myself if you hurt her.” Ryan didn’t move. “I said get the fuck out of my way now!” Summer pushed passed him and into Marissa’s room finding her in a corner. “Hey are you ok?”

Marissa shook her head no. “Please don’t let him back in here.”

“What did he do to you?”

“He raped me.”

“He what!?” Marissa nodded. “Don’t worry I’ll get him out of here.” Summer rose and went back out to him screaming again.



“Ryan raped you?”

“Yea.” Marissa was sitting on the chair crying as she retold Alex everything that happened. Alex felt sorry for even asking now. She got up to comfort Marissa and picked her up in a hug bringing her to the couch on to her lap.

“Shh, you don’t have to continue.”


Alex nodded. “After he left my mom pressed charges in him. He fled, to where I don’t know, but he did. The fucking coward he was. Summer, Seth and I graduated with honors and got full scholarships to USC. Summer and Seth wanted to go, but I didn’t. I wanted to stay and go into law enforcement. I never wanted to feel that vulnerable again. I didn’t want other girls to feel that way. I wanted to make a difference and put people like that behind bars. But Summer talked me into going anyway. We went and I took bull shit classes. Summer and Seth got married that summer. They had a nice wedding. It was my birthday I took off from college after a year deciding it wasn’t right for me. Seth and Summer came up and talked me into meeting at the Baitshop. But all I could remember was you when I was there or anywhere in Newport for that matter. Ryan somehow found out I was still here and he wanted to see me. He wanted to apologize. And since my mom was dead, and the warrant on his arrest had been revoked I had no choice really. So I told him he could say what he wanted. I would never forgive him. He came he said he was sorry. He convinced me he had changed, he wanted to be with me. I told him I couldn’t.”


~*~(flash back)

Ryan walked up to Marissa slowly. “Hey.”

“Hi.” Marissa was sitting on a bar stool.

“Mind if I sit?”


“Look Marissa I am sorry I never meant to hurt you.”

“That’s the thing though Ryan you did.”

“I know, and I am sorry.”

“I know you are but it doesn’t change the fact you did what you did.”

“I know, but please if you just give me another chance I promise I have changed.”

“How do I know that.”

“I turned myself in last summer. I didn’t want to run.”

“But they never said anything about that.”

“No they wouldn’t have because I gave up names for a robbery that I saw. I testified against them.”

“So they let you go?”

“Yea they did. I am really sorry Marissa. I really am. Can we try to be friends again?”

“Yea sure.” Ryan walked away and left Marissa alone. And she took another swig from her water.



“So you forgave him just like that?”

“I didn’t want to.”

“Then why did you?”

“Because I was stupid.” Marissa took her water from the table and took a long drink. She set it back down and looked at Alex. “Summer called me the next day. They all wanted to take me out for my birthday.”


~*~(flash back)

“No I am not going.”

“Please Marissa.” Summer begged.

“No. I don’t want to.”


“Because I just want to sit and think watching the ocean.”


“Because Sum! It reminds me of her!” Marissa felt tears roll down her cheek.

“I am sorry Marissa, I didn’t mean to push.” Sum placed her arms around her friend. Ryan and Seth came up walking from the car.

“Come on guys let’s go.” Seth said.

“I am not going.”

“Please Marissa.” Ryan pleaded.

“Ryan, I am not moving.”

“She’s not coming back. I don’t know why you even bother.” Seth just glared at him.

“Why did you have to go and say that man?”


Summer glared at Ryan then too. She felt Marissa shaking in her arms crying. She looked up to Sum, “Please just leave, I’ll call you tomorrow.”

“Ok Coop. I’ll be waiting.” Marissa nodded.

Summer got up and walked towards Seth. “Come on babe.” Seth and Sum turned to the car.

Ryan stayed looking at her, “Marissa, she isn’t coming back to sweep you off your feet. Just get over it. All these memories are going to kill you.”

“No, Ryan they are what keep me alive.”

“What, like she did?”

“GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME! JUST FUCKING LEAVE!” Marissa screamed her loudest at him.

“Fine.” And Ryan walked away.

Summer looked in that direction and waved to Coop. Then her and Seth got in the car waiting for Ryan. When they were all in the car, they sat for a little while before Seth began to pull out. Seth wasn’t watching the road he was fiddling with the radio.

“SETH!” Summer screamed. When he turned around it was too late.

Marissa turned around hearing the screeching of wheels on asphalt. She looked horrified at the site before her. She ran as fast as she could to Summer and Seth. She didn’t care about Ryan right then. She need to save Summer and Seth. Ryan was the least of her worries. She ran as fast as her legs could carry her. She got there just when the ambulance arrived and was held back by police men. She struggled to break free.

“Please my friends!” Marissa kicked and screamed. The officer just held her back. She saw them taking the top off the car. Seth and Summer were motionless. Ryan was dismembered, he was definitely dead. She looked to the fire men for any signs of life from her friends, but got none. “NO! NO, PLEASE, NO!” Marissa screamed and fell to her knees with her head in her hands. She became a slump of human flesh crying and grieving for her friends.



Marissa was crying as she told Alex. Alex looked at her and held her tighter giving her the comfort she needed. “Marissa I think that’s enough for tonight. We’ll talk about how you went through training and whatever some other time. Right now just calm down.” Alex held her until she fell asleep and she carried her up stairs. She laid her on her bed and went to leave but heard her say something.

“Please, Alex, stay with me.” Alex walked back to the bed and laid next to Marissa and pulled her close to hold her while she calmed down and went back to sleep.

Chapter Six

Marissa woke up the next morning to find her bed empty. She sat up looking around. She got realizing she was still in her clothes from yesterday. She went down stairs to find Alex sitting at the kitchen drinking coffee. “Hey.” Marissa said as she walked to the table and sat down.

“Hey.” Alex looked up at her. Even though her hair was all over the place and sticking up in places she was as beautiful as ever. Alex smiled and pushed the coffee towards her. Marissa gladly took it and sipped from the cup.

“Thank you for staying with me last night.” Marissa looked down at her hands.

“You’re welcome. I should get going. I just didn’t want to leave with out you being awake.”

“Thank you. I am going to get a shower and I’ll be in the station a little late today.”

“Ok.” Alex stood and walked from the table to the door.

“Hey Alex?”

Alex turned around, “Hum.”

“Do you want to have lunch with me at Damien’s?”

“Yea sounds great, I’ll meet you there at 1.”

“Ok.” Alex left and Marissa went up stairs to get a shower. As she stood there allowing the water to beat down on her neck and back she thought of Alex. ‘God I have missed her.’ Marissa finished up and climbed out of the shower walking into her bedroom to get dressed. She looked through her drawers and found a pair of old shorts and a wife beater. She threw them on over wet body still dripping after having dried off. She walked down stairs to put on some music and turned up the volume on her compact disk player. She walked over to some boxes and pulled out the one she had of all her stuff that reminded her of Alex. She began taking things out. Photos, clothes, perfume, letters, everything Marissa had left of Alex when she left. It was what kept her alive for so long. She unpacked the few boxes she had of those then moved to the hardest boxes. The boxes filled with memories of her friends.

Marissa stared at the box. She tried to open it but her body wouldn’t let her, it was like all of a sudden her arms were weak and she didn’t dare move. Marissa sat there just looking at the box for hours. By time she knew it, it was ten to twelve. “Shit I have to get ready.” Marissa walked up stairs and looked through her closet finding a nice mid length skirt and a blouse. The skirt was brown and the blouse was pink. Marissa looked in the mirror. “Yuck, changing.” She headed back to the closet. “I wish Sum was here she’d know what to wear.” Marissa continues to look through her closet finding black dress pants and a green camisole
Top that cut low in a V manner. She inspected herself. “Sexy, definitely sexy.” She walked back to the closet searching out a pair of black heals that had an open toe and were about an inch high. She slipped them on and walked to the bathroom to apply her make-up.

Alex sat in her office to wait for a meeting with the commissioner. She was nervous, he never wanted to see her before. She didn’t know if it was good or bad. She sat in her chair with her hands crosses and tapping her foot. She jumped at hearing a knock on her door. “Come in.” The door swung open. “Ahh, commissioner how good to see you.” Alex offered her hand.

He took it and stated. “You may want to sit down.”

Alex looked confused but she sat down, “Ok?”

“Ms. Kelly listen I don’t want to do this but it’s out of my hands. I really like you being the one in charge. But I am not in the place to make any decisions. They went above my head.”

“What are you talking about sir?”

“They want you out of the captain position.”


“I am sorry, if I had a say it wouldn’t happen. They are going to have you as the highest ranked officer in the unit and the new captain will be here tomorrow so pack up your stuff and put it in the office where Sergeant Cooper is, she is going to be your partner.”

Alex just sat there stunned,. “How could they?”

“Simple, one you’re a woman. Two, you’re hard as nails. Three, you’re bisexual.”

“No I am a lesbian, plain and simple. This is fucked up.”

“Yea it is. I am really sorry.” With that he walked out the door and left Alex packing her stuff. It was twelve thirty she had to be there in fifteen minutes. Alex walked out of her office and looked at Lieutenant Kline.

“Kline, would you mind packing up my office please. I am late for a lunch date.”

“Sure. I’ll put them on my desk till you get back.”

“Be on the safe side just put them in Cooper’s office.”

“Ok.” Alex walked away and walked down stairs to the locker rooms. She took a quick shower and changed into a short black skirt and a light blue blouse and headed out of the station. As she walked to the front she heard whispers behind her back and one of the officers approached her.

“Are you really being relieved of captain?”


“I am so sorry Captain Kelly.”

“That’s Sergeant Kelly now. And it isn’t your fault. I am just too much woman for them.” The station let out a roaring laugh and Alex smiled slightly. “I have to go I am already going to be late.” Alex said as she walked out. “And I won’t be in the rest of the day.” She said over her shoulder as she got into her car. She started it and drove to Damien’s. She stopped at almost every traffic light. “Shit! Come on.” She honked the horn. “It’s no use.” She sat in traffic for a half hour making her ten minutes late. She walked into the restaurant looking for Marissa.

“Excuse me can I help you miss?”

“Yes, I have a table awaiting me.”

“With who?”

“Cooper, Marissa Cooper.”

“Ah, ok. Follow me.” Alex followed the woman to the back of the restaurant and saw the table she stopped her and said, “I think I got it from here, thank you.”

The woman walked away and Alex sat down. “Sorry I was late.”

“It’s ok. Traffic?”

“That and things at the station.” Alex wasn’t happy and Marissa could tell.

“Alex?” She looked up. “What’s wrong?”

“Nothing.” Alex said flatly.

“You are a horrible liar.” Marissa reached for Alex’s hand. “Please, tell me what is wrong.”

“They removed me from captain.”

“They who?”


“So now what?”

“I am a sergeant again.”

“Well that’s like highest except for captain and that’s where I am at.”

“Yea, I know.”

They were interrupted by the waitress who looked intently at the girls hands. Alex looked down and saw that Marissa hadn’t budged. Her hand stayed on top of hers. “What can I get you ladies to drink?”

“Water with lemon.”

“Ok. And you miss?” She turned to Alex.

“Oh, um how about a water for me too.”

“Ok. Do you want a lemon?”


“Ok, I’ll be right back.” She walked off to get their drinks.

“Marissa?” She looked up from her menu. “I have to tell you something.”

“Yea.” Marissa looked at Alex.

“Um, well after they denounced me in front of the whole fucking station,” Alex smiled. “The commissioner made us partners.”

“Oh. That’s cool.”


“Umm hum.” Marissa looked back to her menu. “What do you think you’re going to get?”

“I don’t know I was thinking fish.” Alex hadn’t meant the way it came out but Marissa took it that way.

“Alexis Kelly!”

“That’s not the way I meant it and you know it.” Marissa looked at her, her eye brows up. “Ok maybe I did a little.” Marissa still stared at her. “Ok a lot but hey can you blame me?”

“Nope. Now seriously what are you getting?”

“Ribs and fries.”


“What are you getting?”

“Fish.” Alex’s eyes went big.

“Are you kidding?”

“Nope, I am getting fish with a baked potato and vegetables.”

“Quite the healthy eater now?”

“I try, but I can’t help it if I go off my diet.” Marissa winked at her.

‘Oh my god! What is she doing!? In the middle of public too.’ Alex stared at her and Marissa took off one of her shoes knowing that Alex had a skirt on and rubbed her foot up and down Alex’s leg. Alex looked at her eyes bulging out of her head and a look of “What the hell are you doing” on her face. Alex slapped her foot away and went back to looking out the window. Marissa didn’t stop though. It was a small table and she could reach all the way up Alex’s leg, she already tested it. She drug her foot up the side of her right leg moving up to her thighs under her skirt. Alex moaned slightly at this. Marissa continued to move her foot and played with the inside of Alex’s thigh. Alex tilted her head back but came up quickly pointing behind her. The waitress was coming, but she didn’t remove her foot. “Marissa!”

Marissa just smiled. She leaned forward to Alex and whispered in her ear. “I couldn’t help it, you were right there just looking so sexy.” Alex could feel her warm breath against her ear. She closed her eyes as Marissa leaned back and put her arms on the table still looking at Alex.

“Ehem.” The waitress coughed. “Here are your drinks, would you like to order?”

“Yes, I’ll have the salmon with the baked potato and vegetables. Extra sour cream and butter on the side.”

“Ok, and you?”

Alex still had her eyes closed she was still thinking. “Alex!” She jumped.



“Oh um, I’ll have the ribs and fries please.”

“Sure it will be ready in a half hour.”

“Thank you.” Marissa smiled as she walked away.

“What the hell do you think you are doing?”

“What do you mean Alex?”

“You know exactly what I mean.” She pointed to under the table.

“ I am not following you.” Marissa put on her best confused face and looked all innocent.

“I mean this.” Alex put her hand on top of her thigh and followed her thigh down until she met Marissa’s foot and ran her finger over it.

“Oh, that.” Marissa leaned forward her shirt showing her cleavage quite well and Alex was taking the bait and looking. “That was me trying to get you to want me right here right now.”

“Marissa Cooper!” Alex removed Marissa’s foot once again and said. “Knock it off.”

“What don’t you like it?”


“Ok, ok, I am sorry I’ll behave.”

“I am sure you will.” Alex unbuttoned the top one on her blouse she was getting hot. Marissa looked at her and smiled with satisfaction.

“You so want me right now.”

“Yea, and I want you to be more mature in public too.”

“Alex that hurt.” Marissa said putting her best puppy dog face on.

“Don’t even.” Alex smiled and thought in her head. ’I would love to take you right here miss smart ass.’

The waitress came back and Alex and Marissa talked while they ate. “So training went well hen for you?”

“Yea it did. Certainly toughened me up.”

“Yea it did, you’re not the skinny bitch no more.”

“No I am not.” Marissa and her laughed. “How about you? How did training go?”

“They were scared of me.”

“Are you serious?”

“Umm hum. One girl looked at me and said something I just looked at her and she ran.”

“You’re kidding.”

“No. And then I hit some guy cause he grabbed my ass. I turned around and said, honey I don’t swing that way, and I hit him. He cried like a baby.”

“That’s funny.” Marissa and Alex smiled.

“So I was wondering?”


“Do you have plans for dinner?”

“No, nor do I have plans after this. I am not going in today. I need to unpack some more stuff.”

“Oh…” Alex looked disappointed.

“But it’s only a few boxes I can just shove them under my bed.”

Alex smiled. “How about we go back to my house?”

“Are you asking me to go home with you?”


“Ok. Let’s go.”

“Just let me get the bill.”

“No, I will.”

“No I will.”



“Oh fine split it.”


The waitress came back. “Could I get you ladies anything else?”

“Yea how about your phone number and the check?”

She looked at Alex with disgust. “What I had to it was open for the taking. Don’t worry Rissa.”

The waitress came back with the bill and they paid 50 50 and left for the parking lot. “Oh hey look at that you parked next to me.” Marissa smiled and pointed to the two Mustangs. One was black which was Alex’s and the other red, Marissa’s.

“Well just follow me from here I don’t want you to get lost.”

“Ok.” Alex was sitting at a stop light ten minutes later and saw Marissa make a left hand turn. ‘Where the hell is she going?’ Marissa knew the way to her house. Alex didn’t know that though. She got there in ten minutes and took out her spare key from under the door mat. She unlocked the door and stepped in and closed it re-locking it and hid in the coat closet.

Alex got there about ten minutes later she opened the door and went to open the coat closet. She turned the knob on the door and Marissa jumped out at her. “Ahh!”

Marissa landed on top of her and giggled. “Jesus you scared me.”

“That was the point silly.”

“Was it now?”

“Yes, so what are we doing?”

“I was thinking, swimming and movies.”

“Sounds good to me.”

Chapter Seven

“Wait I can’t go swimming, I don’t have a suit.”

“You can barrow one of mine.” Alex said sitting up and walking up stairs to her room. She stopped at the steps. “Well you coming?”

“Huh, yea.” ‘Damn it she saw me looking at her ass!’ Marissa followed behind still admiring the view of Alex’s ass. They reached her bedroom and Alex walked to her dresser.

She pulled out a tiny pink two piece and another tiny blue two piece. “Take your pick.” She held them out to Marissa.

“That one.” Marissa picked the pink one, of course. Alex handed it to her.

“You can change in there.” Alex said pointing to the bathroom.

“Ok.” Marissa walked into the bathroom and closed the door. She undressed and put on the bottoms and her top which she couldn’t tie. She knocked on the door. “Alex, you done yet? I need help.”

“Yea come on out.” Marissa opened the door, Alex had her back to her and was trying to tie hers as well.

“I thought you were done?”

“As done as I am going to get it. I guess we tie each other’s.” Alex said walking behind Marissa. Alex placed her hands on the tiny laces and pulled it around the middle of Marissa’s back. Her hands grazed Marissa’s skin ever so lightly sending chills up her back. Alex went slowly making sure not to get any of her hair in it. She finished and turned herself around so Marissa could do hers too.

Marissa took the small straps into her hands and brought her hands together at the mid of Alex’s back gently pressing her hands against her skin as she tied it. “All done.”

“Thank you.”

“Yup.” The two of them turned and went down stairs.

“You want something to drink Marissa?”

“Yea what do you have?”

“Water, beer, and so sort of juice.”

“Water is fine.”

Alex took out two bottles of water and they walked out onto the patio. “Wait here, I’ll get towels.”

“Ok.” Marissa sat on a lawn chair waiting for Alex to come back with towels.

“Here.” Alex threw one at her.”

“Thank you.”

“Sure.” Alex laid her towel down and took a drink of her water. “Hey Marissa come here there’s something on your back.” Marissa walked over to Alex and turned around. Alex’s arms snaked around her picking her up and tossing her into the pool.

Marissa came back up short of breath and shivering. “I c..caa…can’t…believe…y…you…dddd…did…that.”

Alex laughed, “You can’t believe I’d throw you in the pool?”

“Duuuh.” Marissa was still shivering.

“Well I think I can change that and make you warmer.” Alex pointed to the hot tub.

Marissa practically ran to it jumping over the wall that stood between her and being warm again. “Are you coming or are you going to continue to laugh at me?”

“I like laughing but I like you too so I think I’ll take the option of joining you.” Alex walked over and sat in the hot tub carefully. She sunk her body in and felt the water drift over her shoulders.

“I am going to get you for that.” Marissa said her lips still blue.

“Oh really?” Alex had her eyes closed. Marissa noticed this and decided to play a trick on the woman next to her. She looked over at Alex and leaned down to kiss her on the lips slowly at first them ran her tongue over her lips. Alex went to kiss back but she pulled away. Alex was shocked. “Hey that was not fair.”

“Life isn’t fair sweetie.” ‘Did I just call her sweetie, Shit I did!’ She looked away and played with her hair. Always was a sign that she was nervous.

“What’s wrong you nervous or something?” Alex knew she was.

“Huh? No of course not why would I be?”

“Because.” Alex moved closer to Marissa and was almost on top of her before either of them realized it. Alex let her body weight fall on Marissa. She made a slight movement to get comfortable and then nibbled on Marissa’s ear. Doing this caused her to moan out loud softly in Alex’s ear. Alex was very turned on by this and moved her hands to Marissa’s back. She went to untie the string but Marissa’s hands stopped her.

“Are you sure you want to do this? And out here?” Marissa looked into her eyes. She could read the confusion in stopping her and the relief in asking her to move.

“Maybe we should move since I don’t have like a fence or anything.” Marissa looked over her shoulder and felt two inches big. “It’s ok, you were distracted.” Alex went back to untying Marissa’s top and slid it off to reveal Marissa’s breasts. Alex smiled as she bent down to kiss them each softly and heard Marissa moan into her ear once again. Alex certainly enjoyed this. She moved her hands down to Marissa’s thighs and continued kissing her breasts. She then moved her hands up and down in a massaging motion over Marissa’s thighs. Marissa was now breathing heavier than before as she felt Alex begin to suck on her nipples and pull at them with her teeth. Marissa tangled her fingers in Alex’s hair tilting her head back as she gave herself to Alex more and more. Alex stopped and Marissa looked disappointed.

“W…why…did you stop?” Alex didn’t answer she just pulled Marissa up and took her in her arms bringing her body up to carry her inside. Alex carried her up the stairs and into her bedroom gently laying her on the bed. “Alex now your bed is wet.”

“It will be even wetter by time I am done with you.” She smiled as she crawled on top of the taller woman. Alex slid her wet body up hers as she made her way to Marissa’s lips. She kissed her tentatively on the lips sliding her tongue over them and prying open her mouth. Alex plunged her tongue into Marissa’s mouth exploring her way around it. Marissa let out a slight moan as Alex massaged her tongue. Marissa’s hands traveled to Alex’s back tugging on the string that held Alex’s breasts prisoner. She slid the suit over her head and pulled her back in for a kiss. Alex pulled back and kissed down Marissa’s neck sucking on the skin where her collar bone and neck meet. Marissa’s hands were roaming Alex’s back as she continued sucking on her neck moving her hands to her breasts. She cupped the left one in her hand and rubbed her thumb over the nipple making it hard. Marissa moaned and dug her hands into Alex’s back a little. Alex moved her other hand to Marissa’s inner thigh massaging it again and she felt Marissa tense up underneath her. Alex pulled away from what she was doing. “Are you ok?” She asked looking into Marissa’s eyes.

“Yea, it’s just…”

“What’s wrong?” Marissa looked away. “Marissa look at me.” Alex pulled her head back to face her. “What is wrong?” Marissa took a gulp. “Marissa, if this is about Ryan we can wait.” Alex didn’t take her eyes off Marissa.

Marissa looked back into Alex’s beautiful blue eyes. She felt bad on the inside for leading her on. She really wanted to do this. She wanted Alex so bad, and now she has her and she can’t continue. “It’s not Ryan.”

“Then what is it?”

“Summer and Seth.”

Alex sat back against the head board. “I’m confused, you want to help here?”

Marissa looked up at Alex. “She was pregnant.”

Alex looked down at Marissa who now had her head in her hands. “Marissa, it’s ok. I know you miss her. I know this is hard for you.” Alex took her into her arms. “Marissa I am here for you. I know this will be a long road. We will take it a day at a time together.”

Marissa was still crying but feeling a little better she kissed Alex on the cheek. “I’m sorry.”

“Don’t be. I understand.” Alex and Marissa continued to sit there and didn’t hear the door open.

“Alex?” Lucy yelled. “Alex, where are you?” She had just got back from New Zealand. She went on a business trip. Well at least that’s what she told Alex. She really left to get her and Marissa back together. “Alex?” Lucy walked up the stairs.

Some how Alex and Marissa managed to doze off and didn’t hear the yelling Lucy coming up the stairs. “Alex?” Lucy said one more time as she passed the last step.

Marissa shook her head. “Alex, some one is calling you.”

“Huh?” Alex rubbed her eyes and looked around. Alex looked to the door and heard a knock but before she could say anything Lucy walked right in.

“Oh shit.” Lucy just stood there as Marissa and Alex scrambled for sheets. “Sorry guys.” Lucy laughed a little. Alex looked up at her younger sister of three years with an annoyed look. “What I said sorry I didn’t know you were up here.”

“It’s called knocking and waiting for a reply.”

“I was just checking on you since I hadn’t seen you since you were all feverish.”

“I’m fine thank you.”


“Am not.”

“Are so.”

“Am not.” Alex picked up a pillow and before she threw it Lucy closed the door quickly and Alex put the pillow back down. “Wow how time flies when you’re having fun.”

“Or when you’re sleeping.”

“Good point. How about dinner?”

“Sounds great, but I think getting changed would be a good idea first. I am not sure your sister wanted to see me half naked.”

“Probably not, but I sure did.” Alex said kissing her on the cheek and pulling off her sheet. “Now get dressed you, so I can eat I am starving.”

“You are always hungry.”

“I said starving now move it.” Marissa laughed to herself. Alex really hadn’t changed all that much. Alex left Marissa after grabbing a pair of jean shorts throwing them at Marissa and then grabbing a pair for herself slipping them on and putting her top back on. Alex walked down to hear arguing in the kitchen.

She peaked around the corner. “What the hell is going on?”

Lucy looked over at her sister, she was in tears. “She came here a few minutes ago. She wants to see you.”

Alex looked from Carly to Lucy. “What the fuck did you do to her?”

“Me? She threatened me.”

“And let me guess you hit her?”

“Yea I did.”

“Get out of my house now!” Alex raised her voice she was pissed, no one and she meant no one hit her sister but her. But Carly just stood there. “I said leave.”

“Alex I wanted to talk to you, please?”



“I said no, get out!”

“But Al…”

“CARLY DAMN IT I SAID OUT!” Alex was now yelling as loud as she could. She didn’t know Marissa was behind her. Marissa grabbed her arm trying to calm her down. Carly looked up at them.

“So you’re the one she could never forget and because of you I lost her because she wouldn’t let me in.”

“I guess I am.” Marissa said. “Now I remember hearing her asking you to leave, or rather demanding that you leave.” Carly turned and walked out the door.

“You’ll regret this, both of you.” She sneered.

Chapter Eight

“I’m going to guess and say that was your ex?”

“Yea it was.” Alex sat at the table.

Marissa followed Alex and sat next to her, “So you going to tell me about the situation the two of you were in or what?”

“We hooked up after I moved back out here. We moved in together but it didn’t work out so we stayed living in separate houses. We drifted apart fought about the stupidest things. I was never around her, I was always working. I got my promotion bought this house two years ago. She wanted to work out our problems but I knew it wouldn’t work and I didn’t want to go through it all over again.”

“Well that’s all fine and dandy, but she said you wouldn’t let her in. That you had to many walls.”

“That’s because I did, and I still do.”

“Because of me?” Alex was quiet. “Fine, call me let me know what you want to do about this.” She waved her hand around referring to them. “I can’t do this if you don’t let me in. I know I hurt you but you hurt me too Alex. You walked away from it before I even got much say in. I loved you and I was confused I don’t know what more you would have wanted from me then. I was a teenager and in high school and dealing with my mom didn’t help make it all better for us. Most everyone was supportive, but you had to talk to my mom that night. She ruined our relationship the moment she told you all of that. And I have always hated her for it. But a few weeks after you left I thought it’s not her fault she was only warning you.” Marissa pointed to Alex. “You’re the one who chose to leave me. I didn’t. And neither did she. You made that choice yourself.” Marissa walked for the door feeling a hand grab her arm she stopped and turned around.

“Please don’t leave.”

“Alex, even when we were together then, you had walls I thought I had brought them all down along with your insecurities. But I hadn’t not even began to. And I can’t believe of how jealous you were of Ryan. Nothing ever happened between us. I know I shouldn’t have spent so much time with him that week, and I should have told you about the mall. For that I am sorry I always have been. But I can’t change what happened and neither can you. I don’t know what else you want me to do here Alex.” Marissa cried. “You wanted to know why I came here. I came here because I wanted to find you. That was the only reason I accepted the transfer.” Marissa slipped her hand out of Alex’s grasp and walked out the door and got in her car. Alex just stood there watching. Marissa put her head on her wheel and sobbed. Alex sat down where she was standing now crying too.

Lucy stood in the kitchen dumbfounded. “Alex?” Alex didn’t answer. “Do you love her?”

“Of course I do.”

“Then get up off your ass and follow her.” Lucy directed.

Alex looked up and got up quickly running out the door. She was too late to catch Marissa she had left. Alex ran back inside and grabbed her keys. She ran out to her car and sped to Marissa’s apartment. Marissa had got there a few minutes after leaving Alex’s place. She walked in leaving the door wide open and turned her music up as loud as she could with out blowing the speakers. Alex got there and quickly turned the car off. She noticed the door was open and ran inside.

“Marissa!” She looked around franticly. “Marissa!” She ran up to the music and turned it off. “Marissa!”

Marissa heard a familiar voice from down stairs and walked to the stair way. “Alex? Why are you here?” Alex looked up at Marissa.

“Thank god you’re alright.”

“I’m physically ok, but mentally hurting right now.”

Alex started walking up the stairs. “I am sorry.”

“What for?”

“Everything. When we were together, when I didn’t trust you,. All of it. I am so sorry. Marissa I do love you. I always have, but I had my insecurities because of Jodie with you and because of you with Carly. I know I hurt you too. I know you wanted in. And I know I wouldn’t let you in. I am sorry Marissa, please forgive me?”

“Alex I really want to but I don’t know what to do. I have to know what is going on in here.” Marissa pointed to her heart, “And here.” pointing to her head. “And right now I don’t know where we stand.”

Alex continued to stare at Marissa. “Marissa, all I can promise is to try my best and let you in as best I can. And I want us to be together again.”

“I do too, but you have to meet me half way.”

“I know. I am sorry about tonight. And about then when I left. If I could take it back I would. I loved you then and I still do. But with my insecurities comes yours too.”

“I know that. And I know I want this to work this time. I want you not anything else. I mean I came here for you not the job.” Marissa moved toward Alex.

“I know.” Alex stood there still staring as Marissa moved forward.

“Alex I know you know you half to do these things and I know you know I came here for you and only you and no one else. But I want to show you and I can’t if you don’t let me.” Marissa’s face was now inches from Alex’s. “Do you have any idea how things were with me until now? Do you know what I went through everyday just to get by and forget you. I never could you were always there.”

Alex could feel Marissa’s breath on her skin. She closed her eyes. “I am sorry Marissa, but it hasn’t been easy for me either.”

“I know it hasn’t. But we’re here now and let’s make the most of it.” Marissa leaned into Alex planting a passionate kiss on her lips. Alex opened her mouth allowing Marissa more access. Marissa explored her mouth with her tongue and heard a small moan come out of Alex’s mouth. Marissa pulled her up stairs and into her room closing the door behind them.

“Wait. We should talk first.”

“About what?”

“Carly.” Alex looked down.

“I don’t care. I don’t want to hear about her or anyone else other than us. Because that was one of our problems always worrying about other people before us.” Alex smiled and looked at Marissa who was now on top of her on the bed unbuttoning her blouse. Alex was short of breath feeling Marissa’s skin against hers as she continued to remove her top. Marissa kissed down from her neck to her collar bone to her chest and back up. She slowly slid her shirt off and threw it to the floor. Alex sat up to try and make a move on Marissa but was pushed back down. “No, you stay there.” Marissa got up off of Alex and removed her clothing one by one as Alex stared at her in awe. Her abs so toned, her legs so defined, her arms so established, her stomach lean and flat. She was amazing. Her body, her attitude, everything, was great. She really had changed, but for the better. Marissa noticed Alex’s mouth had dropped to the floor and she took that as her cue to return back to her. She kissed Alex’s neck and felt hands traveling up and down her back. She moaned out a little as she felt Alex’s hands come to the front caressing her breasts. Marissa leaned into Alex hard and sucked on her neck leaving a trail of hickies, small and subtle. Alex had just about enough and flipped Marissa around.

“You know I love the new you, not that I didn’t love the old you, but you know I like to be in control.” Alex got on Marissa and straddled her. She leaned down kissing her neck, collar bone, shoulder, and then down around her nipples. Marissa’s hands had traveled to Alex’s back and moved up and down until finding her bra clasp and undoing it. She pulled her bra off and threw it to the floor where the rest of their clothes lay. Alex stood and pulled off the rest of her clothes that were keeping their bodies from fully touching. Marissa also stood and pulled Alex back to her as she let herself fall to the bed and Alex on top of her. Alex moved her body along Marissa’s letting their bodies touch as their mouths and hands explored. Alex ran a finger up her leg, across her navel, around her left breast, and then traced the out line of her face. Marissa shuttered.

“Alex please don’t tease me.”

“I wasn’t trying to.” Alex smiled and they locked lips again exploring each others’ mouths. Alex ran her hand back down the sides of Marissa’s body and moved her hand lower as she continued to kiss her. Her hand slowly made its way down to her belly massaging it gently. She pulled away from her mouth and moved to her right breast licking around the nipple and then biting at it. Marissa was going out of her mind.

Alex moved her hand lower still reaching Marissa’s clitoris. She moved her middle finger and index finger in a circular motion around it, gently pressing harder as she continued down Marissa’s body with her tongue. She finally reached her destination and placed her mouth on top of where her fingers were. Marissa gasped and grabbed Alex’s hands intertwining them with hers. Alex continued sucking, and gently biting.

“Oh Alex!” Marissa let out a stifled moan, which meant she was biting her bottom lip. Alex swirled her tongue around Marissa’s clit while bringing one of her hands down to Marissa’s already wet center. She traced the out side lightly and entered two fingers with ease. Marissa stifled out another moan. Alex was driving her nuts. Alex looked up to see if she was ok.

“You ok?”

“Yea, never better.” Alex looked at her for a while longer then moved her mouth back to where it was. Alex slid her fingers in and out of Marissa with no problem. Marissa moaned louder this time allowing it to just come out of her mouth. She bucked her hips upward and into Alex’s face. Alex pumped faster and Marissa moved her hips in motion with Alex’s hand.

“Oh Alex! Faster…ahh…right there Alex!” Alex heard Marissa plea with her to go faster but she didn’t know how much faster she could go, so she took out her fingers and inserted a third with the rest of them pumping into Marissa as hard as she could. “ALEX…” Marissa let out a loud moan and her hips bucked again. Marissa felt the absence of Alex’s fingers and opened her eyes to see Alex licking them.

“You taste so good.” Alex moaned as she licked off the rest of her liquids. Marissa let her head fall back to the pillow.

“That was incredible.”

“Who said I was done yet?” Marissa’s eyes got wide as she felt Alex’s tongue plunge into her very wet center. Alex let her tongue explore around Marissa and sucked gently. Marissa threw her head back in pure ecstasy.

“Alex…oh god…” Marissa was breathing extremely heavily. Her head was spinning in circles from what Alex was doing to her. Alex continued and ran her tongue roughly up all of Marissa, then went back down to her center. Marissa had to let go of Alex’s hand and move it to the head board for support. Alex was driving her wild. With one last push of her tongue Marissa went over hard. She kept her face between her legs and continued licking up all of Marissa’s juices. Marissa’s hips bucked uncontrollably and she grabbed the head board so tight her knuckles were white. She tried to speak but couldn’t. Alex left her center and came back up to face her.

“Are you ok?” Marissa didn’t answer just smiled weakly and nodded. Alex smiled and kissed her. “Speechless huh? I must be pretty good then.”

Marissa still didn’t say anything, she couldn’t. Alex pulled Marissa close and held her the rest of the night while sleep took them both.

Chapter Nine

Alex awoke the next morning to an empty bed. She looked around the room but didn’t see anyone. After a few minutes of waking up, she pulled a robe out of Marissa’s closet and walked down stairs. As soon as she hit the stairs she could smell the hint of maple syrup and waffles. She walked the rest of the way down the stairs and went into the kitchen. She walked up behind Marissa and placed her arms around her. “Good morning beautiful.”

“Hey I thought I’d make us some breakfast before work.”

“Work? Right, what time is it?”


“Whoa, that’s early.”

“Yeah but it will give us time to be there by nine. We have to eat and shower. And you need clothes.”

“Yeah I do, but it’s so far away from your house that it would be pointless to go back to my house.”

“You’re right, you can wear my extra uniform.”

“Ok. That really smells good.”

“Well then I guess you’ll be eating then.”

“Most definitely.” Alex winked and sat at the table.

“Alex! You’re so dirty.”

“I can’t help it, you know that.”

“Yeah I know.” Marissa sat down with the plate of waffles in her hand and the syrup in the other. She set it out and got them plates and forks. They ate and talked about how the day might go. When they were done they went up stairs and got in the shower together. Of course they couldn’t do anything since they had work in and hour.

Marissa and Alex washed each other and got out. Marissa walked into the bed room dripping wet and walked to the closet. Alex followed but when she went by the be she stubbed her big toe on something. She looked down to find a box filled with things from Newport. Things that reminded Marissa of Seth and Summer, and even a little bit of Ryan. Alex looked through the box as Marissa was in the closet getting everything they both needed. Alex found one picture and Summer’s stomach was slightly plumper than it had been when she was in Newport. “Summer was pregnant?” She said it quietly as to not attract Marissa’s attention. She sorted through the box some more and found wedding pictures of Seth and Summer. “Wow and they were married.” Alex said again in a soft voice. Alex quickly shoved the box under the bed and sat on it.

Marissa walked out of the closet and handed Alex her extra uniform. “Thanks.”

“No problem.” Alex stood dropping her towel and set the uniform on the bed as Marissa handed her a t-shirt for under her uniform. Alex put on her under clothes from the night before and then her t-shirt. She sat on the bed and pulled on the pants slowly. She sat back down and placed each arm in a hole for her shirt. She stood and tucked in both shirts and then zippered and buttoned her pants. Sitting back down again she realized she needed socks.

“Uh, Marissa, how about a pair of socks?”

“Top drawer Alex.” Marissa said from the bathroom. Alex walked to the top drawer and pulled out a pair of socks, she went to close the drawer but something caught her eye. She pulled out a piece of paper. It was a death certificate, for Alyssa Cooper. “Alyssa Cooper, must have been the baby’s name.” Alex felt bad about it. She felt she was prying but maybe she had to. She placed the paper back into the drawer and closed it. She sat on the bed and put the socks on. “What am I going to do? How can I bring any of this up with out her getting upset?” Marissa walked out of the bathroom fully clothed and in her uniform which Alex loved to see on her.

“What are you staring at?” Alex’s mouth was wide open.


“Why, you have the same uniform.”

“Yeah I know. Come on let’s get to work. First day as partners, we’re going to have some work to do.” Alex and Marissa went to work and walked into their office first.

They placed papers where they should be and put all of Alex’s things on her desk where they belonged. They heard a knock on the door. “Come in.”

Lieutenant Kline walked in and spoke to both of them. “The new captain wants to see you both.”

“Thanks, Tracy.”

“No problem Marissa.” Tracy walked out with Marissa and Alex following and going to the captain’s office.

Alex opened the door and the two of them walked in. “You wanted to see us sir?”

“Yes, sit down. You two are new with the partners thing I know, but I have a steak out for you two tonight. There’s been some heavy drug dealing in this area here.” He said pointing to the map. “I want you two to bust this next deal. The dealer is set up with three buyers. Radio in for back up if you need it, but I want this done tonight.”

“Yes sir.” Alex and Marissa walked to the door.

“Oh and Alex.”


“I will allow you two to continue this relationship as long as it doesn’t interfere with your work.”

“Ok.” Alex turned towards the door but was stopped again.

“And Alex?”


“Be careful. Take the rest of the day and prepare. I don’t want any slip ups from either of you. I want this guy tonight.”

“Sure thing boss.”

“Carter, Captain Carter.”

“Ok, Carter. Has a nice ring to it.” Alex and Marissa left closing the door behind them. Tracy gave them all of the files they asked for and they went to work.

Alex and Marissa had been in the office for a few hours and most everyone was heading home except for late shift. Alex looked up from the file she was reading. “I think we have everything we need to know.”

“Yeah me too.”

“This guy has a lot of buyers.” Alex said standing.

“He sure does. Come on we should get ready.” Alex and Marissa went back to her apartment and grabbed some street clothes.

“How are we going to do this? Guy gangster looking clothes or what?”

“Of course.” Marissa pulled out two pairs of baggy jeans and gave a pair to Alex. They undressed and pulled on the jeans. They left their under shirts on and Marissa handed Alex a hoodie she too placed one over her head. They put their guns into their jeans’ belts along with extra ammo and pulled their hoodies over them so they weren’t showing. “Ready?”

“Yeah, but let’s take my old car. It’s beat up so no one will really notice it in a bad neighborhood.”

“Ok. Do we need anything else?”

“Binoculars, food, drinks, coffee. This is going to be a long night.” They gathered their things and went to the address they were given.

“Here we are, now what?”

“Now we wait.” They waited two hours before seeing any movement. Two guys a girl and their dog walked toward a building. Alex looked at Marissa. “Let’s go. We aren’t doing any good out here.” Alex and Marissa got out of the car quickly but quietly and moved toward the door. They stayed there for a moment listening to what was going on inside.



“You owe me money!” A man’s voice harsh sounding but young.

“I know, I know. I swear I’ll have it next week.” Strange, a woman’s voice. Alex kept listening as Marissa waited. Alex turned to her and told her to go around back and to be careful. Marissa walked off and slowly made her way to the back of the building. Alex listened again but didn’t hear any sounds from inside. She moved to the other side of the door when she heard foot steps coming out towards the door. She waited for the door to open to make a move.

What she saw she didn’t expect and lowered her gun. “Carly? What the hell?”

Carly stopped looked at Alex. “I knew they would send you.”

“What are you talking about?”

“This whole thing was a set up. Don’t you get it? How Carter replaced you so quickly, How he sent you and Marissa to the same place, and knew about your relationship with her. How do you think he knew Alex?”

“You set all of this up?”

“Yup, I did, I am guilty.”

“What the fuck?”

“What you don’t know how I did it?”


“First off I went to the counselor’s office. I got him to play along for a nice sum of money. Then the new captain sent you on this wild goose chase after me. Don’t you get it Alex? I am doing this because if I can’t have you, no one will.” Carly stared Alex in the eye and went for her gun. Alex had no time to react Carly pulled a gun on her and there was no way for her to raise her gun to meet Carly’s. “Give me the gun Alex.”

Carly held her hand out while pointing the gun at Alex. She slowly handed the gun to Carly. Marissa burst out of the door and stopped suddenly.

“There’s no one…inside.” Marissa said looking at Carly with her gun pointing at Alex.

“Get out of here Marissa. Go back inside or something, but just go. I’ll take care of this.” Marissa went back through the door and closed it sitting behind it with her ear to the door so she could listen to what was going on outside.

“You really love her don’t you?”

“Yes I do. I always have.”

“I know, that’s why I am doing this. I wanted you. I was there after she left you. I took care of you. I loved you. And you just threw me away like old clothes. It hurt me, you hurt me. Now I am going to hurt you.” She grabbed Alex by the hair tossing her aside and out of her way. She opened the door stepping inside to find Marissa was no where in sight. She walked around quietly looking in every crevice. Every shadow that moved she pointed the gun at. Marissa wasn’t anywhere near her though. By time Alex realized that she was still laying there someone was at her side.

“Are you ok?”

“Marissa?” Alex blinked. “Marissa get out of here.”

“No I am not leaving you.”

“Please just go.” Alex turned away. “I love you I don’t want you to get hurt.”

“I am not leaving.”

“Fine you stubborn ass. Help me up then.” Marissa laughed lightly and help Alex to her feet. Just as she stood Carly flung the door open and laughed.

“Thought you could get away did you?” She laughed again and raise the gun pointing it straight at Marissa.

Chapter Ten

Marissa stared back at Carly horrified. Alex made a move to step in front of her. “I wouldn’t do that if I were you unless you both want to die. Stay where you are don’t move.” Carly never flinched, she’d make a good cop if she wasn’t a criminal.

Alex stood there her gaze never leaving Carly’s. “Please Car don’t do this.”

“Why the hell not? You threw me away like yesterday’s trash.”

“I’m sorry if you felt like I didn’t care about you. That’s why I broke up with you so I didn’t hurt you because Marissa came back to town.” Alex let a tear leave her eyes. She did care about Carly, she never wanted to hurt her, but she loved Marissa.

“So, you could have at least told me!” Carly was getting frustrated and upset. When you get upset you make mistakes. Marissa took that to her advantage and low kicked Carly sending her to the ground with Alex jumping on top of her quickly grabbing the gun from her. Both Marissa and Alex thought it was over but it wasn’t yet.

Carly whistled and out came a bunch of guys. Alex stood slowly and her and Marissa were back to back. They were surrounded by goons. Guys with bats, metal chains, knives, guns, and whips all surrounding them. “Shit.” Alex whispered.

“You can say that again.” Marissa breathed out.

Carly rose up standing behind them. “I suggest you two follow me inside.” She opened the door. “As for you.” She pointed to the guys with the whips and knives. “Come with me, the rest of you guard this door, no one in or out.” She laughed as she closed the door behind her and her goons leaving them inside a dark room. Carly lifted her hand and flicked on the light switch.

The lights were bright, nearly blinding to Marissa and Alex. She walked towards them and was babbling about something. Alex and Marissa hadn’t noticed the two tables though. Carly put her gun down and grabbed Marissa by the hair dragging her to the first table pulling her on top of it. She cuffed her hands in place and her legs. Alex stood dumbfounded staring in horror as to what the tables were for. Carly then walked to Alex. Alex tried to fight but Carly’s goons grabbed her from behind throwing her onto the other table beside Marissa. The two of them looked at each other with pure fear on their faces.

Carly stood laughing. “You are both pathetic.” She seethed and took a knife from one of the men. “I am going to enjoy this.” She taunted walking closer to Marissa.

“No please.” Alex begged and pleaded with her not to harm Marissa. She struggled against the bars of steal holding her down. “Carly. Please!”

Carly snickered at her. “How weak. Pathetic really. If you could only see your face, fear, panic, it’s written all over you. I can change that if you’d like me to. Then no one will see your facial expressions.”

“You’re psychotic!” She turned to Marissa holding the knife in her left hand and grabbing her hoodie slicing up the middle.

“You should have stayed quiet.” She snickered again before ridding Marissa of both tops.


(Back At the Station)

Lucy had called Tracy about Carly. Lucy knew the real Carly, deceitful. “Tracy I am afraid for Alex and Marissa.”


“Look I know Carly, she is insane.”

“I have met her you know?”

“Yea I do which is why I am asking you to help. I think their steak out was a set up.”

“But the captain?”

“He’s in on it too.”


“Pay off.”

“Shit, just fucking wonderful.”


(Back to the warehouse)

Marissa laid there in a bra and her jeans shaking. Carly looked at her and then to Alex. “I see why you love her. Great body. Don’t you think Alex? Well I think I can change that.” Carly crawled onto of the table and onto Marissa. Marissa tried to kick her off but couldn’t “Feisty, I like that. You’d be a good fuck you know?” Marissa looked away from her still struggling against her. “You know you aren’t helping yourself here. Struggling will tire you out faster. Just take all the pain.” Carly slowly lowered the knife to Marissa’s stomach running the blade across her stomach slowly and carefully as to not cut to deep, but enough for her to feel it. Marissa writhed beneath her in pain. She bit her lip so hard to keep from screaming out. She knew that’s what Carly wanted. She bit her lips so hard it was bleeding.

Carly looked over to Alex, who had tears in her eyes because she couldn’t stop Carly. “Oh baby don’t cry, she’ll die nice and slow you’ll get a long good bye I promise.”

Alex’s face changed from concerned with fear to pissed. “You BITCH!”

“Glad you noticed.” Carly looked back to Marissa.

She leaned down sticking her tongue on Marissa’s face dragging it along her chin and to her ear and down her neck to her bra strap. Carly cut the straps off and watched them fall to the floor as Marissa soon appeared topless and scared. Carly leaned back down and ran her tongue over Marissa’s chest. Marissa’s face was of pure disgust. Carly moved her mouth to Marissa’s left breast biting down on it forcefully and pulling at it. Marissa screamed in pain and agony. “Ahhh…” It was high pitched and cut off by Carly’s hand smacking her. Marissa let the tears flow from her eyes and closed them tightly so she didn’t have to look at the monster on top of her.

Alex watched in agony and pain as Carly continued to torture her. Marissa screamed every time Carly did something. Her screams were haunting. Alex could stand the sound and tried to cover her ears with her shoulders but couldn’t. She felt helpless. Marissa was in pain and she couldn’t do anything.

Carly still on Marissa looked back to Alex who had her eyes shut. “I would watch if you knew what was good for you and this tramp here. Or I will kill her now. Keep your eyes focused right here.” Carly went back to Marissa and licked down her body once more. She went back up to Marissa’s mouth placing her lips over hers and biting hard on her upper lip drawing more blood. Marissa winced. Carly looked into her eyes seeing the fear in them. She felt sorry for her. She really though Marissa was beautiful and hated doing this to her, but Alex deserved it. Carly moved down on her body to her jeans cutting the belt and pulling them right off Marissa’s ass. She looked at the terrified girl in front of her smiling. She bent down and placed her head on Marissa’s stomach below her wound. She ran her fingers up and down Marissa’s legs as she shook with fear. Her body trembling in complete fear.

Alex looked on in terror at what was happening and she could do nothing but stare. Her eyes swelled with tears as Carly placed the knife along her leg and traced a scratch up her leg right to where her panties were. Marissa was crying and shaking making it hard for Carly to not cut her too deep. She didn’t really want to kill Marissa, just Alex. She bent down and licked up the blood protruding from the scratch along Marissa’s leg. She let her tongue take up all of it and stopped reaching Marissa’s panties. “Hum, should I taste her?” Carly looked to Alex.

Alex had a pleading look on her face yet again. “Please leave her alone. I am the one you want to hurt not her.”

“You’re right there. But I really want to fuck your girl. She’s hot. And plus I want her to have it nice and rough. I want to see how much she can take. How much you can take me doing to her before you spas.” Carly looked back to Marissa who was terrified more than ever by the girl on top of her. Carly forced her hands into Marissa’s panties and pulled them down. Marissa was now naked and being sexually assaulted Marissa could feel her hands in her forcing her to accept her. Marissa screamed in pain as Carly thrust hard into her. “I want you to come for me. Come for me Marissa!” Marissa was crying as Carly pounded into her with her fingers. She screamed as she felt the tissue rip and she felt something warm trickle down her leg. Carly looked down. She had cut Marissa badly, not meaning to. “Oh my god.” Carly jumped off the table and left Marissa crying in pain and shaking in fear. Alex tried to move, but with every struggle she became weaker.

Carly backed away from the two girls in front of her. She was now crying too. She stumbled over her feet falling to the floor. She looked down at her hands. They were covered in blood, Marissa’s blood. She cried at the site and sat there rocking herself trying to make it go away. “What the hell is wrong with me?” She asked herself.


(In Tracy’s car)

“Lucy here take this.” Tracy handed her the gun. She looked Carly up in the data base. She was schizophrenic. Two people in one. A person who was controllable and loving and kind. The other a mess, animal like, crazy.

“What is this for?”

“Protection.” Lucy stared at her with a look of horror. She realized then that one of the girls would be dead after the ordeal but who. Tracy pulled up to the ware house and got out. She walked up to the door hearing screams from inside. She busted it open with her shoulder rushing to Marissa’s aid first. She uncuffed her hands and feet helping her with a shirt and a pair of pants and sitting her down n the floor. Tracy gave her the gun while she went to uncuff Alex.

Alex ran to Marissa and pulled her close, crying. “God I am so sorry. I should have protected you.”

Marissa was crying but tried her best to regain her composure. “I’m ok it just hurts, I’ll be fine. Alex took the gun from Marissa not realizing that Carly too had one in her hand.

She walked over closer to Carly but not too close. She raised her gun and cocked it. “How could you hurt the only person I loved. If you loved me you wouldn’t have hurt her.” Alex watch as Carly stood raising her gun to meet Alex’s.

“There is one thing I never told you Alex.” She paused and laughed again. “I’m schizophrenic. I have a split personality. I am two different people. The person who hurt you and Marissa which is the person I am now. And the person who feels horrible about it.” She turned the gun from Alex and pointed it at herself and cocked it.

“I don’t care who you are, what you are I don’t fucking care. Go to hell.” Alex watched as Carly pulled the trigger. There was blood every where. Carly’s head was almost completely blown away. Carly’s hand fell from the weight of the gun and when the gun hit the floor it went off again sending a bullet in Marissa’s direction. The bullet hit Marissa right in the ribs. She doubled over screaming in pain once again and was wheezing. “Marissa!” Alex ran to her. She laid her down on the floor gently.

Lucy came up behind her stunned at everything that had just happened. She placed a hand on Alex’s shoulder. “The ambulance is on it’s way. They should be here within minutes.”

Alex place a her hand on Marissa’s face and kissed her. “You’ll be fine I promise baby. Everything will be fine.” Marissa nodded she wasn’t hurt badly it could have been worse she could have died but she hadn’t. The ambulance arrived and removed the bullet and cleaned her wounds out. They put her in the back of the ambulance and Alex got on after them.

“I am sorry miss you can’t go. You’ll have to leave.”

“The Hell I Am!”

“Miss please.”

“No I am her girlfriend I am not going anywhere. For one I am a cop. Two I can kick your ass. Three I love this girl. Four shut fuck up and sit down somewhere if you are done.”

The guy backed off right away cowering in the seat next to the driver. Alex sat beside Marissa and kissed her forehead. “Everything will be fine.”

“Just promise me one thing.”


“No more steak outs.” Marissa joked. Alex laugh a little and hugged Marissa.

“I am so glad you’re ok.”

“If I wasn’t then what would have been the point of me crawling back to you?” Alex looked deep into Marissa’s eyes and kissed her lips softly as to not hurt her, but she felt Marissa’s hand on her neck pulling her in closer, she complied and deepened the kiss as they head for St. John’s Memorial Hospital.

*The End*


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