Alki's 'In Blue' Challenge #5- All the Love In the World
by Erin Griffin
Fandom: Dead Like Me
Pairing: Betty/George
Disclaimer: I think it is Showtime that owns DLM, but I am not exactly sure. Whoever does, it ain't me.
Author's Note: I didn't see a bunch of subtext between these two in the first couple of episodes, but when Betty had her last episode, there was a lot of it, and they kept repeating that scene in the beginning of two or three episodes afterwards. This spoils the first 5 or so episodes of the first season.
The irony of the fact that I've accomplished more in the last two months of my death than I ever had in life never escaped me. In life, I never tried anything just to be spontaneous. I never did anything to benefit myself or anyone else for that matter, and I certainly never had anyone care about me in a way that made me need it. I finally have friends, except for Rube. He still drives me insane. Still I believe I'm missing something real, and I can't help but to think I missed out on that when Betty jumped into that Irishman's afterlife. I was told by Rube that we can't go where the souls we take can go, and I actually prayed like I never did in life OR death that Betty didn't face some horrible consequence because of that. She's a redhead, green eyed beauty who'd really fit in in Ireland, and I really hope she found happiness there if she got to stay. I often find myself daydreaming about the Head Honcho looking at her soul quota saying, "You know what, she only had about twenty left, I'll let her stay." I'd take those twenty or however many more as long as she's actually at peace.
I wonder if after I've finished my quota I'd get to see her again. The thought that I won't makes my chest hurt. Before she left, she'd said, 'I love you Sweetie', and I wonder if she'd meant that in more than a 'you're my bestest friend', (which really wouldn't say much if you knew Roxy, Mason and Rube) or if she meant it in a 'I'm sorta gay for you' way. I really hoped for the latter. I wear her ring around my neck now, as my fingers are too big for it to fit, and I imagine her wanting it back someday and she'll somehow come back for it. I don't know anything anymore. I just don't want to wake up alone anymore thinking she'll just barge in demanding my attention and her ring back (not that I would deny her any of that). I'm starting to believe more and more every time I have to pound on the bathroom door for Daist A-fucking-dair to let me piss that I'll never see Betty again. Or maybe I will. I won't hold my breath, but if she somehow does get back to me, I'll tell her how I've felt all this time, ask her if she really meant it when she said she loved me. I'm only human and nights grow colder with no one to love me that way, but if she ever gets her ass back here and says she does, I'd give her all the love in the world. I wonder why it took me dying- getting killed by a toilet seat from outer space mind you- before I actually started living, because in life I'd never been in love, and I wonder now if that was my only blessing or curse.
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The Corrs Lyrics
"The Corrs All The Love In The World lyrics"
I'm not looking for someone to talk to
I've got my friend, I'm more than O.K.
I've got more than a girl could wish for
I live my dreams but it's not all they say
Still I believe (I'm missing) I'm missing something real
I need someone who really sees me...
(Don't wanna wake...) Don't wanna wake up alone anymore
Still believing you'll walk through my door
All I need is to know it's for sure
Then I'll give... all the love in the world
I've often wondered if love's an illusion
Just to get you through the loneliest days
I can't criticize it
I have no hesitation
My imagination just stole me away
(Still...) Still I believe
(I'm missing) I'm missing something real
I need someone who really sees me...
(Don't wanna wake...) Don't wanna wake up alone anymore
Still believing you'll walk through my door
All I need is to know it's for sure
Then I'll give... all the love in the world
Love's for a lifetime not for a moment
So how could I throw it away
Yeah I'm only human
And nights grow colder
With no-one to love me that way
Yeah I need someone who really sees me...
(Don't wanna wake...) And i won't wake up alone anymore
Still believing you'll walk through my door
You'll reach for me and I'll know it's for sure
Then I'll give all the love in the world
(Don't wanna wake up alone anymore...)