Title: What's in a Hug?

Author: Majandra

Email: flavorlesschocolate@hotmail.com

Rating: PG

Pairing: B/S

Disclaimer: Not mine, never were, blah blah woof woof.

Author's Notes: I'm out of town again, away from my hard drive and the madness that is "I'd Rather Be In Love" so here's a little random first since I haven't done one of those in a while. It was written in about twenty minutes so don't blame me for any errors!

What's In A Hug?

"I'm sorry.

That's what I wanted to say first of all. I'm sorry about what happened, I know that given the chance you would have stopped it, and it never would have happened. I'm sorry that you didn't get the chance. I'm not sorry, however, that I had the experience.

I should probably explain why what happened, happened. It's kind of a long story. See, for the longest time now, I've had this philosophy about hugs. Most of the time I feel like they're the sum of their parts, or, to put it another way, a hug is just the feeling of standing close to someone and feeling their arms around you, while your arms are around them. That's all, completely clinical.

I've hugged a lot of people in my time. I guess you could say I'm a hug type of person. But see, here's where I start to get to my point. I've hugged my friends and felt nothing, hugged my parents and felt something, but not much, and hugged boyfriends and also felt nothing.

And then I hugged you.

What's in a hug, right? A hug by any other arms would feel as sweet... Or not sweet, as the case may be. Wrong. Hugging you wasn't anything like the sum of its parts. Hugging you was... Different. And I feel like I have to tell you how it was different. I felt... I felt your arms around me, my arms around you, and we were standing close, as you do when you hug. But I wasn't prepared for the sudden feeling of... Home. That's the only way I can think of to describe it, hugging you felt like home. I felt like I was inside a protective bubble when I was in your arms, and I didn't want it to end.

So here's the part I'm sorry about, because I'm not sorry for feeling what I felt. When I felt you start to pull away I panicked, I didn't know what to do. I only knew I couldn't lose that feeling, and so that's why I did what I did. That's why I kissed you.

I'm sorry I kissed you. I'm sorry I've lost that feeling forever because you're probably angry with me and I don't blame you. I know it can never happen again, so don't worry about me trying anything again. I'm sorry you had to go through that, I know you're straight, and I know that even if you were into girls you wouldn't have kissed me in a thousand years, but I think I blame you. You shouldn't have made me feel like home.

Still, there's something else I should tell you. I thought I knew before this whole incident happened, but I know that I know now. I love you."

~

Sam stared at the letter in her hands. Now she didn't know what she was supposed to do with it. Still, it had been written, and that was the main thing, right? The only coherent thought in her head was to go and see Brooke.

"Brooke," she began, looking at the blonde carefully. "Brooke, why did you write this? It's lovely, but some of it is a bit off."

Brooke looked Sam. "Insensitive much?" She snapped, her eyes tearing up. "I meant every word."

Sam stepped closer, but Brooke backed away. "No, don't do it, don't make me feel like that if you're only going to take it away."

"Let me hug you, damn it! God, then you might understand what I'm trying to say!" Sam was almost at the end of her tether, but she knew she had to be careful if she wanted this to work the way she wanted.

She pulled the reluctant blonde into the circle of her arms and hugged her tight. Brooke started to cry, feebly trying to pull away, but Sam didn't let her. She pulled back with her upper body but kept her arms around Brooke, and she leaned in and kissed the sobbing blonde.

Like magic, the tears stopped and Brooke kissed back, the tears drying on her face as she held Sam as tight as she could.

"I love you too, Brooke, please believe me."

"I believe you! I believe you! Please just kiss me again!"