Waiting

Title: "Waiting"

Author: A.M. Glass

Rating: 'PG' It's funny how one word can change a rating.

Disclaimer: Joss Whedon, Fox and Mutant Enemy all have something to do with "Buffy The Vampire Slayer" and all the characters contained herein. The story is sole property of the author, me. No copyright infringement is intended or inferred.

Spoiler(s): Brief mention of "Goodbye Iowa."

Author's Notes: This is just something I've found that I actually like doing recently, Tara's thoughts. Now, some of you could possibly fall into one of three categories that I can think of. Either you hate, like, or are completely indifferent to the character. I sort of like her, and will most likely continue to do so unless she does something… really, really bad to Willow. Then she to will fall to the side as Oz did. It's not that I don't like Oz, I do. I just happen to like Willow better. Now, I'd better get to the story before this gets *as* long as the story.

She was in my room again.

I like it when she's here.

She makes me feel good about myself.

No one's done that in a long time.

She makes me giddy, whenever she's around. I can just feel the silly grin on my face whenever I see her. Gods, I can't help it.

Hmm, I wonder if she's picked up on it?

On a more serious note, I didn't *want* to do what I had to do.

I can't afford for her to find out, not yet.

I don't have a choice.

I hope when she finds out... she'll understand.

I don't want to lose her, not after I've found her.

It's getting to the point where I can *feel* something happening between us.

Ever since that night…

I'm not really sure when I'm going to meet her friends. She really loves them, you can tell whenever she talks about them.

They're very lucky to have her in their lives, just as I've so recently found out.

I want to share so many things with her.

She… she's just… wonderful.

I'm not going to push myself on her.

No.

I respect her far too much for that.

Yes, I know. How can I say I respect her, when I haven't told her the truth?

I'll just have to follow her lead for now and see where it goes.

I can see that she's somewhat confused, like when she showed up earlier, before she wanted to attempt that damn spell. I could see she's trying to understand what she might feel towards me. And I will wait for the day when she finally realizes one way or another.

If it goes my way, so be it.

Of course I'll be the happiest person on the planet that day.

If not, I'll learn to live with my feelings and be utterly grateful for her friendship.

She is who she is.

I'm not trying to change that, if I did, she would no longer be the one I've dreamt of.

Well, once again, it's time to wrap this up.

I hope she doesn't get hurt trying to help Buffy. Yeah, that's her friends' name.

That would be *very* bad.

Good night Willow, may your dreams be free of harm.

Tara.

The End

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