Title: Closeness

Author: Major_Sam

Email: funky_chicken88@hotmail.com

Rating: G/Pre Relationship

Pairings: Sam/Shelley

Disclaimer: All characters belong to MGM, Gekko and their creators, i am not making any money from these fics.

Notes: Thanks to John and everyone's support in helping me write these Fics. Feedback is always appreciated.

Summary: After Daniel ascends, Shelley feels alone. So does Sam.


I saw her from the doorway. Trying to hide her tears from everyone and not succeeding. I could see her, with her back against the wall, holding her stomach, feeling the baby that was moving inside her. But still her tears fell.

We took her home not long after. The colonel didn't want to leave her alone for too long so he asked me to help him watch her, taking shifts. How could he ask that? Would he have asked that if he knew how I felt inside? Sadness that Daniel was gone but happiness too. I'm crazy to feel this way, crazy that his leaving could make me smile just a little. But my smile leaves me as I see her again, crying, unable to stop. I feel angry again. Angry at him for not letting her say goodbye. She needed to let go. Now she could only do it with tears. Inside she probably wants to smash things, to get everything out. But she can't. She has their baby growing inside her. At first I was sad about that. But she is going to be such a beautiful mother. It's what she was meant to be. To share herself with another person. To give life to someone as beautiful as she is.

She's looking up at me, tears filling her eyes. She looks so tired. I just want to hold her. I turn and begin to walk away.

"Sam, please don't leave me,Ē she whispered.

I can't believe it. She wants me to stay. I lie next to her on the bed.

"I won't leave."

Oh god. I can't stop but smile as she rests her head on my chest. All I can do is smell her hair. I hope she doesnít notice. I want to tell her that I love her that Iíve loved her from that first moment we met. I donít know what happened to me that day.

How could she make me feel this way? How could another woman make me feel like this? Especially her, the wife of my friend for five years. But still, I love her. Love her with all my heart and soul.

I can feel her heart beating next to mine. Feel her chest rising against me. Her sobs fill the room. It's almost as though I can feel her heart breaking. She has her arm around me. This kills me, knowing that this is all I can offer her. I slip my arm around her as she rests her head on my shoulder. Her tears fall against my cheek. I'm sitting here with her in my arms and I know that the only thought she has is Daniel. She'll never love me; know the feel of my body next to hers. All I have is this moment. Her grief is my happiness.

She's stopped crying now, her sobs making way for sleep. I brush her hair away from her face and kiss her forehead softly. For this moment that she's in my arms, I feel her that in a small way we are together and that's how Iíll always choose to remember it.


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